Hide N Seek

I walk into a room, ready to dodge bullets, my shields up in every place. I duck behind fake smile; a different persona for every time we speak. Why? Because I can’t let you know me; I’ve hidden the real me so deep I barely know her…if I let her reappear…

Afraid of disappointing I try to be everything but i still have nothing to show. Resigned to this darkness ’cause i don’t believe there is love for me anymore. But this act it so tiring! Hiding my heart made it rot and I’m scared…

Would you take my heart and squeeze it? Take my soul and tear it to pieces? Dissecting me to find the scars that no one sees! It’s all carefully hidden away ’cause I can’t go through all that pain again so hard as it is I’ll keep playing this game of hide and seek.

Exhausted I look at the sky ’cause more than i want to hide…I want to be known; I want to be loved; I want to be free…I want to be done with this pointless game.

You say you’ll take my heart and heal it. You’ll take my soul and mend all the pieces. You’ve already seen the scars I hide away…you died so I won’t have the pain! You open your arms and welcome me; say here you are part of my family! I don’t have to fight for acceptance! I don’t have to play this game of hide n seek!