Trapped

Like a mouse in a trap

Stuck

Trapped

Alone

Struggling for life

Struggling to get up in the morning

Struggling to love

The people

The things

Struggling to be me

I can’t

Get away

From the shouting

The fighting

The you’re not good enough

The constant complaints

The everyday to do lists

But

You’re not enough

You don’t do this enough

You don’t love me

You’re not attracted me to anymore

Why are we together

Constant questions

Why are we together

Oh so this is how we are solving things now

This is how we make it through

We don’t

We struggle

We are trapped

We are stuck

Like a mouse in a trap

I love you

But I feel trapped

Constant expectations

Never being enough

Being told no-one cares

This is why i am depressed

I’m not happy

You are not my safe place

I can’t be here anymore

With the expectations

With never being good enough

I’m only draining myself

I can’t do it

I can’t express myself

As then I’m weak

I fall

And here comes another opportunity

For twisting my thoughts

For making me feel bad

For turning it around

For becoming suicidal yourself

Just to trap me again

I can’t do it

Not anymore

I’m not happy

I love you

But I feel trapped