You, The Modern Angel

You were born of particle and dust, carefully sewn with trails of light, and filled with worlds unseen.

But then, you were pushed into the abyss, swallowed by the viscous black. It filled the spaces where there should be air and enveloped you, suffocating you with flesh and all its unruly demands. Pieces of you, vulnerable, contorted sinew push through your holy threads and leave you hapless. Hopeless.

You've felt this.

Haven't you?

It's in the way you wail for love, for fame. The way you glutton, though all discernable needs are met. Like an insect met with the shock of fate, you pour into the flashing light, for it has promised you so much. You fall, willingly so, into your own siren song of self-preservation. You jump from wheel to wheel, picking asphalt from your wounds. You peer into the depth of glass and plastic, hoping to catch remnants of your birth, that familiar glimmer within the darkness of dimensions. But the spark isn't there. It never is.

You despise this.

Don't you?

There is a piece of yourself, petulant and whining, just as you did when forced onto this Earth. Its cries keep you up at night as you stare yards into the black, merging with the déjà-rêvé. You mask the natural light, afraid of its illumination. And so, your Petulant Self is "disciplined", neglected, ignored, abused. It's forced into the background, unsure of how to reach you, for petulance is its only defense against the voracious black. It will wail until its needs are met. A thread tugs at your heart and you slice it, annoyed. You are too tired for the truth.

You're denying this.

Aren't you?

The smiles formed with brick and string are not the same as the ones that appear in those quiet moments when you recall your composition of dust and light. As you float along cyclicality, you discover how to move with grace through the uncanny valley, how to walk within the plotted chaos of the moon. The nature of your intelligence usurps the desire for control and the ancient truths of the past push you into the future. The guiding light of your Self relived will tell you stories of dust and stars. If you listen, you release.

But you knew this.

Didn't you?