How to Make It All Better

Please remember that you matter so much, and no one wants to see you hurt. There is evil in this world, but someone would die to keep you safe from it.

Step 1.

Smile more. Put on a bright smile everyday, so everyone thinks they know you're doing fine. Smile so brightly that you parents admire the grin they haven't seen in years. So brightly, your doctors think you're better. Then when you swallow that bullet, and crack your teeth on the metal of the barrel, they would've never seen it coming.

Step 2.

Act natural. Don't skip meals. Eat the full plate, ignore the tastes that you've learned to hate, do not think about the calories climbing down your throat. Wake up in the morning and put on your best clothes, follow a strict schedule, as if you know what you're doing in life. Act as if nothing out of the ordinary would ever happen. As if everything is just as normal as they used to be.

Step 3.

Be selfless. How ever you plan on taking your life, you will always be called selfish for you decision.

Give away all your prized-possessions, and donate next to everything you own. Die the hero you were meant to be, and make everyone mourn at the wonderful person they lost.

Step 4.

You can not say goodbye. Leave them with the heartbreak, and keep them up years after you've left. There is so much to say, and so little time before you start to rethink everything. It is so much easier to leave without giving a reason, than to live a life you cannot manage.

Step 5.

Do not rethink anything. How horrible it would be to suffer this way for the rest of your life? Do not talk to anyone, do not seek out for help. People will only hold you back, and you just wanna be happy. This is what you want. You'll never be able to make this decision again, and what a dirty world this is. Under pressure, precious things can break, but honey, you could never compare to fine china.

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A/N

I know things get hard, but leaving makes everything so much harder. Please just imagine losing the person you love most, and watching life go on without them in it. Here one day, and gone the next. Like everything you've ever cared about ripped from your hands. Remember, some always thinks of you. No one deserves to die.