Same No More

I'm not the same.

That sweet little girl

twirling in my new

frilly dress.

Dancing in the rain

muddy puddles, a ducky mess.

Playing patty-cake with my newborns tiny hands.

Guiding little sleepyheads off to neverlands.

Watching them from the crowd

as they grew and played

when allowed.

I miss them now

so much,

I wish they could have stayed.

Hard lessons learned.

Heart scars earned.

What once was whole,

now has a hole.

Broken and in pieces

with an ache, a pain

that never ceases.

No, I'm afraid I'll never

be the same.