Ramblings of a Wasted Potential

"You can do it if you put your heart to it," they said. "You have so much potential," they said.

What is it to have potential? What does it mean to put your heart into something? Does it mean to try your hardest? And what if you fail despite that? Is your potential gone? Are you still not trying hard enough?

Why do I have to try harder than the rest? Why am I not like the rest? Why can't I understand them? Why can't they understand me?

Why am I being called out? What is so different about me? Why am I special? Why am I me?