what if

What if I got all I ever wanted—

Would I be happy or just feel haunted?

Some days can’t pass without thinking of you,

A memory that’s hard to undo.

My heart, it reminds me of what I lost,

I can’t enjoy what I have, no matter the cost.

I want more, even when I have enough,

Maybe I’m an attention seeker, but only your love.

I got angry because it’s true,

I thought if I had you, I'd be happy too.

I made the mistake of loving you,

Even though I knew I’d have to leave you.

I hoped for the happiness you'd bring,

But now I worry about everything.

What if I lost it all, just to move on,

Would I finally forget that you're gone?

Maybe I cared because I had it all,

But now I need to focus on the things I still hold.

Will you disappear when I do?

Or will I still be haunted by the memory of you?