Scared.
Have you ever been scared?
Scared of every second
That you spend living and breathing
Scared of every minute
That keeps you thinking and singing
Scared of every hour
That passes you by in a rhythm
Scared of everyday
That you dread in the morning
Have you ever been scared of every single person
That you know and love?
Have you ever wondered if there really is
"Someone up above"?
Have you imagined every dying
And everyone saw
But they all decided to ignore it
So you were instantly forgotten?
Have you ever been afraid of the
Bottomless, empty dark?
Not because it's so scary
But just because it's so dark?
That when you sit inside of it
It kills your soul
And swallows your heart?
Have you ever loved someone to the point you were sick
And if anything ever happened to them
You would break into bits?
Or have you ever hated someone to the point you were mad
And if they ever showed their faces
You'd be incredibly sad?
I don't know if you can understand
What I'm getting at, but
I hope you can hear when I'm speaking
I'm not asking for help
I'm crying to breathe and
Asking you to leave me alone with my thoughts
Have you ever been scared
Of everyone knowing your problems?
And trying to tell you that it's alright
That it's normal to be depressed
That it's normal to want to die?
Have you ever hated when
They call you disabled
When you voice out your issues
And every one of your fears
And you just wish that these people
Had listening ears?
Have you ever wanted so badly to be loved
That you tried to run away
But you were scared they'd never find you
So you stayed anyway?
Have you ever been told that you'll never be enough
By the ones who call themselves "parents"
And they make you give up
All of your God-given talents?
Or have you ever just wanted to be introspective
And make them see things from your perspective?
That's enough questions without answers
And that's enough answers without questions
I'm not trying to be negative
I'm trying to make you see
This is not another narrative
This is me.