Lesson learnt
I'm scared
Scared to break, to fall
Scared to mend, to rise
Fear engulfs me as I try
Try and try to love
But it's just another 4 letter word
Like hate
I'm afraid
Afraid to care, to show
Afraid to ignore, to conceal
My fears are the demons attacking me
Consistent attacks I cannot stop
But it's just another 6 letter word
Like endure
40% sad
60% happy
A wholesome 100 you make me
But can never mend my whole
Broken pieces
In your deceptive eyes and
Cunning fingers
You grabbed my heart
Changed it from the rocks of the shore
To the deep waters of the blue
And now you've got me
And I've got you
But this doesn't take away
My fear or my attacks
Perhaps even more
It drives them closer to me
You said you loved me
And I believed you
Even with my broken pieces you called heart
Now you say you hate me
And I believe you
Cos it's just a four letter switch
Something you couldn't switch up in time
Before you turned my lights on
For you to push me back in darkness
Submerged hopes, lesson learnt
â Xx Ayanfe