Impulsive Inhibition

Inhibit.

That's the life I've lived for a very long time, to limit- albeit in limitation in and of itself; impulsivity runs deep within my veins.

To hold back a tremor when I'm far too stimulated.

To fight off hunger when my insides

collapse.

To quiet the abundance of

anxieties.

To quell the thoughts that say too far beyond unwell.

To conceal the dissatisfaction with

healthy.

The disgust and the lust to just indulge

in all that remains from keeping me

entirely insane.