A Note To My Teenage Self
Take extra everything, more than you think you need.
Go up the old forest trails no one uses,
Because you are no one, yourself.
Do not stop walking until you cannot go farther.
This will give you extra time to use
Before anyone can find/stop/save/destroy you.
Take the pills before the alcohol,
Since two sips of vodka in you will
Be too trashed to continue. (You are trash.)
Do not bring your cellphone or a note
For dramatic last goodbyes.
No one wanted to hear what you said
Or had to say, in the first place.
The pep talk the world wants to give you
About things getting better one day somehow
Is a lie. It will get much, much worse.
Show yourself the mercy they won't
And make a swift exit from this life
While you are still courageous.
(They will break you if you live.)