It’s you.
I cant get you off my mind. Your all I can think about. The good, the bad, the couldve, wouldve. The emotions that jump at me eveytime I see you, hear you, feel you.
Anger for not being brave enough, for feeling let down, for letting you give up on everything we had and letting myself walk away. Pain everytime someone else talks about you, talks about being around you, talks about touching you. Pain at the thought of you being with someone else, someone that can give you everything I couldn't. Happiness when I see you smile, when I see that shine in your eyes and crinkle by the sides. When I see you happy, being content, and everything you wanted to be, going places you told me you wanted to see. Dissapointment; dissappointed in me, dissapointed in you. Dissappointed in what could've been. And lastly defeated. Defeated when your metres away and I can't call to you. Defeated when your sitting beside me but I can't reach for you. Defeated because of everything we had, and everything that'll never be.
I’m sorry
I'm sorry that I can't turn back the time
I'm sorry that I can;t gibve you one last laugh.
I'm sorry that I can't take away the pain
I'm sorry that it had to be this way.
I'm sorry they don't feel the hurt you do,
I'm sorry they have it easy, unlike you.
I'm sorry I can't wipe away those tears,
if she was here I know she'd plead;
she'd beg for you to move on
to keep her memory to warm your heart.
You know she asked for you everyday,
wheres my son? I need him, she'd say
tell him I love him and to be aware;
this life will hurt you and strip you bare.
I'm sorry you can't lock her in a box
and take her with you, wherever you are.
I'm sorry you can't hold on forever
this life is racing with or without her.
I know with time we'll all forget
and live our lives, that's the way it is.
I'm sorry the distance kept you away.
I'm sorry that death has to be this way.