satiate
a burning
trail of kisses
your mouth,
so sapid,
so lush
brands into
my skin.
searing me from
jaw to
ear to neck
to my breasts.
lingering there,
dampening me.
moving across
my stomach
slipping, sliding,
gliding
lower
to the junction between
my thighs.
it sends my senses
reeling!
i replay
every touch
every kiss
every shudder
every moan.
as my fingers
dance upon my skin,
I search within
my inner folds
for a depth
that only you
can reach.
a constant reminder
of your touch
your taste
your scent,
the essence of you
envelops me.
i lay here
shuddering,
quivering
spent and sated
yet totally
alone.....
I am drawn
always,
to the things
that I know
can never be mine.
I wonder,
is it part of your charm,
to appear so
unharmed,
unmarred by
all that is I?
You remain
nonchalant
and assured
knowing how
I must feel.
Knowing that
you have wrapped
the very essence
of me
around each of your fingers.
and oh!
how I crave
to sprawl,
to crawl,
to fall
deeply, deeper
into the warmth
I have discovered
is you.
scarred
I promised myself
I'd be kind to my heart.
That I'd do
everything right.
This time.
and forever more.
Because I know
what I deserve
is much bigger and greater
than what I have
now.
I pushed everyone else
out
and made room in my
heart and soul
for you.
All I needed was
your truths.
Betrayed again,
yet no more the victim.
so long it's been
that i have
allowed
a soul
into my inner sanctuary.
not merely
the physical
aspect
of that image,
but inside
the recesses
of my mind
into
the inner folds
of my
thoughts.
behind the
walls of my soul
my heart
blockaded
by years of
distrust,
dishonesty,
misuse.
so many
years of life
lived
unhappily.
i fear,
that i am no longer
aware of how
to open
the best parts of me.