I shut the door as Alex walks away, feeling dejected and broken. I wanted him, but I couldn't go after him. I was too scared. Too scared for my own good.
Fuck it a voice in my brain says. Fuck it all and go after him. And so I did what any crazy woman in love would do: I grabbed the card key to my room and wearing only my blue evening dress and the flower in my hair, sprinted down the hallway relentlessly to catch up with Alex. AlexanderBane. The man I loved.
"Alex!" I called as I rounded a corner, not caring that it was after midnight and that other hotel guests were sound asleep, "Alex, wait!"
He managed to turn around in time for me to jump right into his arms that came around my waist. I secured my own arms around his neck as he took me in: excited, disheveled, and breathless. His deep dark eyes were confused, and hesitant. I touched my fingers to his dark skinned cheek, wondering how I could have possibly never seen what was right in front of me. Damn.
"Kaelin," he asked half smiling, "what are you doing?"
I brought my face closer and said, "Something I should have done when I got off the train the first time," and closed the space between our lips in a searing kiss. There would be no going back from this, but I had no cares. Everything was worth it, Alex was worth all the pain I could receive. If he is meant to destroy me, let him shatter me.
At first I thought Alex wasn't responding to me. I started to pull away, feeling embarrassed by his rejection when he suddenly tightened his hold on my waist and began to kiss me back fiercely, as though he was a starving man that had been granted a feast. OhGodand Heaven give me more. The sensation of his kiss weakened my legs. Thank God he was holding me or I would have dropped to the floor.
I pulled away from his delicious mouth, my forehead rested on his, "Stay with me tonight."
"Kaelin," he huffed, clutching my body tightly to his.
"Please Alex baby. I need you," I begged, kissing his lips once more.
He breathed hard, "Yes. Fuck yes Kae."
Without another thought I pulled Alex down the hallway back to my hotel room, my heart racing with anticipation the whole way. Once we were back at my door, I quickly pulled my key card back out of my bra to unlock the door. Alex stood behind me, his arms around my waist holding me close while pressing featherlight kisses to my neck. I could feel his erection caressing my backside, which only made me moan. His hands ran up over my breasts bad back down nearing my hot wet center as I finally got the door open and stepped inside, Alex following behind me quickly. I hoped he could feel the fluffy lace underwear I was wearing underneath this dress and I hoped it made him crazy.
We hadn't even been inside the room for a second before we were at each other again, kissing and caressing each other. Alex slid his hands down my sides and squeezed my hips as he backed me into a wall to press every inch of his body to my own, "Oh Alex," I sighed against his lips, pulling off his jacket and tie. All of the pleasure building up inside me was almost more than I could take. I needed Alex to touch me.
"Kaelin," he caressed my cheek, making me shiver, "What the hell are you doing to me?"
"Touch me Alex. Please," I begged as I kissed him softly.
"Where Kae? Show me sweetheart," he whispered seductively, skimming the sides of my breasts, right near where I wanted him. Impatient and needy, I took his hands in my own and laid them right on my breasts, pressing his palms into their centers so he could feel my hardened points. I look up at him, and saw the desire spiked in his darkened eyes. He massaged his palms under mine, making me throw my head back and moan in ecstasy.
"Alex," I whispered like a prayer, "Oh Alexander."
"What have you got under that dress Kaelin Jamestown?" He traced the line of my dress from my sternum to my belly button, his right hand still grasping my breast firmly, but he was gentle. He always was gentle.
Feeling confident from his sexy stare, I stepped away from the wall and reached behind me to unzip my dress, pulling the clasp down slowly as I watched Alex fuck me with his bedroom eyes. Once the zipper was done, I dragged the soft blue material off my shoulders and let the dress pool at my feet. Alex let out a breath, "So damn beautiful Kaelin. God you kill me." He strode forward to me and kissed me full on the mouth with a passion that I had never known. Moving my hands quickly, I unbuttoned his dress shirt and pulling it out of his pants, he tossed it away somewhere. I didn't keep track of where it dropped because he led me to the bed and I fell back first onto it. I laughed with Alex as he crawled on top of me and kissed me, his bare hands caressing every part of my exposed skin until he dove his hands under to unclasp my black push up bra. Slowly he pulled it off my shoulders and dropped it somewhere on the floor. I was going insane with the way he was looking at me: as if I was so precious, yet so irresistible he couldn't decide what to do to me.
"Kaelin," he breathed, "I lied, I'm sorry. I wanted you so bad but I thought I could never have you. I thought you could never feel the same way about me. I'm so screwed up. Forgive me, please."
"I don't care Alex," I gasped, "I'm here, and I'm all yours. I've wanted you so much it hurts. Just don't break me please."
He grinned, "never my Süßes Herz. Never ever. I'll kill myself before I allow myself to think of hurting your sweet soul."
I frowned. I knew he was speaking German again but I had no idea what he said, "what did you call me?"
"It means sweetheart in German."
I melted, "Fucking hell Bane. I love you."
"I love you too Kaelin."
I nodded, pulling his face down to kiss him fully again. He moved off my lips and latched onto one of my sensitive breasts. I cried out in pleasure, "Oh God Alex!" as he suckled relentlessly until the tip was pink and swollen, then moved to the other one. I didn't even realize his hand was caressing my womanhood till I felt the spike of pleasure from his fingers hit me like a rock, damn he was good with his hands.
"Mm, that feels so good Alex baby," i purred, widening my legs for him. I could soon feel the need rising in the pit of my stomach as I climbed higher and higher into ecstasy, "Oh! Faster Alex!" I pleaded, "Oh! I'm so close!" He reached in and sucked at my collarbone and that was my undoing. I came apart, screaming his name . I spiraled out and down as I came down from my high. Breathless, I looked up to see him watching me with hooded eyes, "God that was hot," he commented, lowering himself so his body was pressed against mine once more. His fingers came out of nowhere. I grabbed ten and sucked them clean, tasting myself on each one. He grunted, "Now that was even hotter."
After I was done with that, I reached between us to undo the button and zipper of his pants, his raging erection straining at the front. God I wanted him, inside me, all over me, however I could get him.
"Alex," I demanded in a needy whisper, "I need you inside me. Now."
I pushed his pants down and he got rid of them along with his underwear. His length stood hard and proud. Getting back on top of me, he pulled my own panties down slowly, kissing my right leg as he went down to my ankles and once he disposed of those, came straight back. His hand went between my legs once more, "Damn you're wet," he hissed, "are you sure you want this?"
I glared at him, "Fuck yes. I goddamn want you Alexander Bane. Now make love to me, please," I begged.
He smiled, "as you wish, my love." And with that he lifted my legs in each of his hands and pushed his thick, glorious length into my hot, weeping center. I felt a pinch of pain from my virginity disappearing and i cried out just a little. Alex leaned down and held me, "it's okay Kaelin. The pain will ease," he whispered lovingly in my ear and I felt myself relax at his words. Sure enough, the pleasure overcame the pain with incredible saturated desire welling up inside my gut.
"Mm Alex," I moaned, "Move please." Seeing I was no longer in pain, he began to move in and out of me slowly and fully, so I felt every inch of him penetrate my womanhood. I moaned as the gratification of my desire built up, every nerve ending being hit just right, until I felt that tug again, the climb to fall off the edge into heaven again, "Alex," I raised my voice, "Faster, please." He willingly complied, grunting to say that he too was close to his completion. I felt the insides of my womanhood clench around him just before I cried out in ecstasy, "Oh God, oh yes, Ohhhh ALEX!" I full on screamed as my world exploded around me. Alex came with me and we both fell off in a pleasure filled haze as he collapsed on top of me, his face buried in the crook of my neck. He left soft kisses there as he pulled out of me and rolled over to the side. My body felt like lead and I didn't care if I never moved again. I don't even know how much time passed that I laid there.
I'd lost my virginity. To a man I loved, in a fucking fancy hotel room in the middle of uptown Chicago after the most wonderful night of my entire life. Goals my friends, goals.
I slowly turned over towards Alex, who was smiling at me, "What are you looking at me like that for?"
"You're so stunning. Plus it was pretty sexy when you moaned and screamed my name." He reached out and unclipped the blue flower from my hair and put it on the table next to his side.
"I forgot about that," I confessed.
"Well we were a little preoccupied," he pointed out smartly, grinning at me. I felt his hand run up and down my side, caressing my sensitive skin attentively.
I chuckled, "Yes we did, best way to be preoccupied that ever happened to me," I winked at him.
He held his arm out, "come here beautiful." I happily crawled into his embrace, wrapping an arm around his naked torso. He was warm, and I had never felt more comfortable.
I looked up at Alex and kissed his sweet lips, lingering on them. A question bubbled to my lips, "When did you know you loved me?"
He caresses my hair with one hand as I laid my head on his arm, "The moment I fell in love with you? Let me see," he deliberated for a second before saying, "When I told you how screwed up I really was and you didn't leave. You've never left."
"I would never leave you. You mean more to me than anything Alexander. I can't give you up, no matter how illogical it sounds."
Alex kissed my hand, "And I love you for that, and the way you say my name," he said, "Now what about you?"
"When you told me if you ever had the displeasure of meeting Zeke that you would punch him in the face," I said truthfully, "no one has ever been that way for me. Mostly when people hear about my brother they just say 'oh' or 'that sucks' or 'it could be worse.'"
"Your brother needs a lobotomy. I know I keep saying, that but it's true. Either that or he needs to rot in hell. You deserve better than that."
I leaned in closer to him and kissed his awaiting lips, letting my breasts brush against his chest lightly, “Damn. I love you, Alexander Bane.”
“And I love you, Kaelin Jamestown.”