the cats eye
followed me
across the room
stalking me
as if I were
a early dinner
or worst
the father
of her doubts
& regrets
when we were young
we didn't care
to be sun kissed
in the summer
& cancer
well that was something
for the old folks
forgetting all too quickly
that age is what follows
when our youthful dreams
are done
I felt trapped
within a temporal vortex
as the history of my life
from beginning to end
washes over me
until I am no longer
a living being
but a lost soul
searching for a home
I was always leery
couldn't help it
it's something
about the scars
made me that way
something
about the tears
that has taught me
to doubt
I've always been leery
till she taught me
to beleive
the words were intimate
the feelings profound
& every time
we dared to touch
a new dream was to be found
the hearts were one
all my yesterdays
are now echoes
reflections of slipping time
and dreams that never
bothered to stay
and now
with my last tomorrow
just minutes away
I'm trapped
in the here and now
nothing more
than a shattered man
watching time
finally
slip away
only his parents were secretive
about Nash
meaning just to protect him
still remembering him as Natasha
& the beatings she encountered
for daring to be she
who truly was
in the end
there was no reckoning
no thirst for revenge
no anger to be spent
just tears for all the years
lost
over a misheard word
& the dreams lost
in a broken soul
some think that
the journey's end
is that moment
when the eyes close
for the last time
but no
it is the time
your final lesson
is forgotten
in the those years
long past
your lifetime
in his mind
it wasn't that the tattoo
was ugly
it was so beautiful
it made his eyes cry
but his name was Joseph
not Jsoeph
& his wife was Lori
not Laura