I heard you were lost

Pressed against California costs

Learning what my brother did at twenty-six,

Out in Houston, Texas

where my essence

Is.

Paranoid

So I mold this clay chest,

push ups

and

bar hangs

Stars

fade

and

I play

Words

From the ancients.

All at once:

I was a Mustang

swerving

off the road,

..… a comet …..

only seen through your

peripherals

The whining voice at the brink of exhaustion.

I carve impatience from my baggy

E y e s

Laugh

again and again

Yet I feel that ache

Thumping like sickly love,

mistrust cycling ventricles:

It's never that simple.

Doctors say I'm stressed

Something chasing my bloodline

Exposed veins shine like sacrificial cliffs

Golden rocks with newly blazed moss:

I am bleeding and burning,

Loving

You

sprinting paycheck

after paycheck.

You

Fall

So

Beautifully

From your family tree

Tumbling rapidly in fields of yesterday:

Green eyes undulating like rolling wet film

Flames like sea walls

d i v i d e d

Slowly lashing as i walk impatient

Talk until my lips shut.

December 2012

At the church

Last walk of my light

Vigils lit with tender glows

As if that night we were invited;

A family torn to three

Granted one last chance at humanity.

Without

a

L

I

F

E

L

I

N

E

I find my honest self….

blood scurrying past my face

slowing enveloped

in your sins

Wonder what you were like at 23,

What you fought for before you

Vanished.

I seek life in every breath

Take steps to my origins

Wish to extinguish

Your

Image

.

. . .

.

.

En mis sueños te veo pa

Alli estoy enfrente de la tele

y tú con el cuchillo en la mano

¡Y la sangre!

El día que nunca se va de mi memoria

me despierto con tu cara

En el espejo,

Mideo ardiendo a traves

De mis ojos.

Escucho tu voz pa

Hablando de Morelia,

Y tu infancia.

Mi hermano mayor es tu reflejo

Y yo

Una sombra de tu personaje.

No sé si te volveré a ver

pero sé que nunca olvidaré

los años que tuvimos.

for better or worse.

I. Today I Learned

I bury all I am in my sins,

Faith in liquored-love.

Fairy bottles replay static memories.

Plenty of bruises, red rift scars,

Blood spurts

And limbs locked;

Punch drunk tempting her fate

Corroding cherry wraith

Goblet crush

Top her off!

Sure today I tell you how I feel.

Daisy fangs swirl a trillion;

At midnight we sat in the back seat of the

Silver mustang

Butterflies fluttering in circadian allure

Fresh foaming crystal brew wrestling my mangled tongue.

With You playing, windows open,

Honeycomb night air veiling

Tingling liquored-liver,

I stare at your phone

and

silver skylines end.

II. No names left to trust

So I develop my alter ego,

gold chain hanging

To my mosaic heart,

I stumble among extinct stars,

Trap cold character:

Ice Age.

Soon the round world fades,

Faces blur, gold lenses curve all

l o v e.

Jump my h o p e.

Tan cap like Yin

and

Yang.

Polo emblem my ensemble;

Her tan skin like drops of honey

Sky resembles my F e a r.

III. Sin Miedo Me Voy….

Heaven only knows what awaits

Sore shoulders and unfurling gates

Trade stress for two thousand hops

Crack calve muscles:

Tectonic shift.

Cortisol huffs cool in serotonin rush

Far off I see liquified azul twilight

Orange creamsicle dreams,

Splashes of tangerine

flutters.

Infectious spirals smile before

collapsing.

I felt nothing but

Crushing breathes,

Heart echoing in my cavernous chest

droplets forming

Calcified

d

e

p

t

h

s.

IV. It Began With the Sun

Laser rays and isolation

Just how I would spend

the end of

My sunflower youth

Before I set off to my adventure,

A life that could not be claimed by

My mother’s past

Only my feet marching to newfound

Fear.

I wore a silky white T-Shirt,

Daisy wore overalls and a gray long sleeve

Late summer sun blazed black leather seats,

Metal belt stung with magma jaws;

A day at the mall with friends,

That's all It was.

I was just coming back from Houston

Something about the city ate away at me,

My family felt like a parasitic reflection:

A dystopian image I could not rattle- so I

Marched off.

Nothing but plains blessed my surroundings,

Farmland said to be gold

Dead grass like evergreen forests

Orchards sprayed with white paint

Tar roads with chalk drawings leading

Up to

Twists and turns

Here I faded away from

The front seat conversations

Let my shy tendencies take hold

Gold lenses flaring with curiosity,

H o p e.

V. Tonight You Belong To Me

I saw a maniac on the car roof in

The mall garage parking lot slowly slipping,

Screaming, not afraid but excited,

Clenching stupidity and death with flailing arms.

I awoke from my silent stupor, shot

Joy from my anchored mind

Strolled shop after shop realizing what this could all be,

Freedom from laser rays and isolation:

A new happiness.

Flakes of creation pranced Infinite bound

Cosmic darkness, clashing gray puffed clouds and

Rustic fields fortuned by dandelion wisps

Wailing against ocean deep canvas clouds

Simulations clamored red eyes of stardust

Novae laughter locked light kevlar hatred,

Platelets scurried to sparred rifts, en garde new

Hell ten year holocaust, sauna mist drowns

Arctic iced whiskey cup; talk and talk 00-4

Burn every nuclear home- just as you did

Before. Aims wished sanctuary ashes

Away, Cowells at bay staring into

Fiery magma fins, sweet tangerine walls

Lashing tepid shed roof, wooden spine squeals

Sundered focal synapse: revolution

Revved as bumbling coupe engine, medals granted

Devil’s tongue spiraling in ears of young agents,

Hard fought! Clouded Cowells picked up Book of Dreams

Ripped page of Love, evolving revolver

Squandered, point, aim, shoo. Entity Aims access

To Oceanside granted. Prepare for War.

00-4 said in a gravelly commanding voice,

Legion gravitas dissipating, next

Awaits. Cowells gait slow and militant.

Neon mist crisp emerald blades, residue like

Faint oasis dreams, crystalline waterfalls

Splash weary leafy seams, above seas collapse;

Foggy fingers clasp to new day's sanguine glove.

Crisp autumn air reveals trails of clotted char

Streaks, livid vinyl crackles popped coffin den,

Devils suited, cloaked, petrified by plasma

Cotton candy haze- Hellfires spin to HQ.

Colt clipped, one round chambered, boulevards

Freshly lit, Coupe consumes tar roads, Gaul Heights

Prowling, sirens scatter pedestrian

Wards, youth inhale rotten flesh stench, plasma

Churns, gurgling cotton candy vents, cherry

Swirls unwind tonight's chapter. Petrified

Breath batters Book of Dreams, fresh yellow pages

Glow elliptical, Eden returns to mind

Drink the witches brew, swirling raspberry

Chamber drools cold exhaust, nights cost sanity

Coupe swerves with turbo thrust, escape the plains;

Pink city bound, cruel bars claw tinted glass,

Aims inhales midnight smog, tar fuses flesh

Late teens talk tactics, plain fashion, laughs

Echo sidewalks, alleys, veins of the city

Report to HQ command- dropoff- engage…

Cowells brushes onyx curls, ladies lurk drunk;

Quick punch paces livened liver, quiver

Unleashes snake chain gun ballistics, strange

Dame lights red and blue skyline- minds eye trails…

Dips, scrolls; Doom is imminent, intimate

Encounters flower Aims tequila shots:

Call me love, late in my premonition;

Navy blue tears confide in war torn lands

I know where you lurk:

Devil's Den

New Disciples.

I claim Heaven as my Hell

Paradise supplied in layers

Digital players spike

Cherry peace.

Flee

Porous concrete driveway rumbled hoppy

Gravel like militant pulsar-eye youth

Arms ready, chamber NATO rounds, say your

Peace: Legion bound- MACH 10- light bends as

Emerald tendril embrace, she calls like bear mace,

Scars my palms in hurricane dismay, stares

At feeble lightning lips, striking cancerous

Skies; Kneel, sheath Legion sword swift, Council nigh;

Entity with countenance of midnight,

Sizzling coals pulse red optic highlights

Like bulging veins; connected to Gauless,

Dark Tower command, he knows the skies as

Flippant Zeus, commander in another

Realiti, shined onyx leather boots,

Buttery flakes of gold flare the toe box

Cloaked staggered dreads rest on winded cape, steps

Confide in perforated steel steps, yellow

Lights radiate rustic boots, dress pants flow

After each collision; atomic glaives

Return to gunner slots. Aims and Cowells

Stand facing Entity 00-4,

Nameless after THE FINAL MARCH to denote

New hierarchy, only Council members

Were deemed with their true Entity design,

A means of departure from Legion ranks

From disintegrated armies, flesh was

No longer enough, nor metal as a

Substitute; Rise agents, direct me to

OBJ TARANTULA's sanctuary.

Aims scurried, crossing his fingers like a

Knotted pendulum, Cowells in awe, this was

His first view of a Council member, they

All project their holographic visage

From Dark Tower GLASS, they had not walked earth

Since their victory over Old Regime

Operatives, rumors of machines of

Council design brushed agent circles, none

Truly cared only passion Eden fruits

Called implanted eyes, Hellfire bikes killed darkness.

War ready 00-4 shattered industrial door

Onyx boots smelting feeble sanctum mouth

Devil's calling, strange grenade scrambles

Surviving comms, pulsing veins with goose bumps

Rising as laser rays shocked eyes with stray

Whispers of underground chatter, 00-4 knew

Within microseconds what this tattered, home of

Unfurling overgrowth was: entrance to

The Underground; a means of escaping

Historia with ease, a supersonic

Bullet train rumbling freedom: a grand gesture,

A means of rebellion to Legion.

Entity 00-4 unveiled wavering cloak

Facing dirt devoured wall, once flowery

Lilacs sung against seas of cerulean

Ether, molotov ignited… realms flee.

Dragon scaled midnight moon shedding indigo

Blades of interstellar dust, ethereal

Scales brush holographic cotton candy

Skies; plasma high fades primordial flames

Etching Cowells' cratered cerebrum, Aims'

Eyes coursing with tarsal veins, rampant cells

Gush in hexing spirals, roads viral locks

Suffocating chambered trauma, minor keys

Cling to Coupe’s marble breath, songs of life echo…

Retrofit headlights like outlines of black holes,

Abyssal darkness shrouds oncoming highway

Signs, creation beams expel veiling deep

Beyond extinction and unseen exodus

The Infinite awakens peering honey

Graced pastures, stratocumulus clouds shout

Heaven sent predations, flesh laced and clasped

Call forever never waning even

In far off Afterlife; claws crawl carelessly

Leaving pools of oxidized blood; squid scorned

Ink paints in the Book of Dreams fating a day

To be met: dandelion smile. crystal heart.

Winter never sang so cold, syrupy

Cerulean suburb embankment, sweet

Skyline clings to hazy smoggy tapestry,

Silky residue pours down leaves of grass,

Frontier houses consumed by overgrowth

Growl, planks and termites, spikes invite headlights

Revealing Legion Hellfire bikes and slain

Heads; Aims parked Coupe by evanescent optic

Wires, tires cough specks of ancient dirt, Cowells

Detects scents of electrified flesh, Rangers

Yell, pointing to a ranch house with a pine green

Industrial door; Aims at the ready kicks in

Feeble entrance, colt clears cluttered halls, soft

Pastel colors degrading from hungry summer

Fangs siphoning once docile identity

Now cultish resistance, banners of distant

Freedom, colors of old societies.

Cowells cleared the last room, snub nose revolving

Awaiting underground fiends to slice his skull

Wide open, what was behind the rosy

Rusted door was stacks of black and white notebooks,

Cracked pilot pens plastic scattered on a

Dove white dresser with dandelions painted

On the fractured wooden handles, blades of

Grass and freshly grown glass decorated

Tan carpeted floors, Aims scoured war run

Room and knew what Entity had resided

Within these crumbling walls, Aims called over

Legion MPs to confirm suspicions:

OBJ TARANTULA was here, inform

Gauless: COUNCIL DIRECTIVE 44

Is complete, awaiting course…Entity

00-4 preparing flight Delta,

Oceanside access to be determined:

We await Council. Cowells peered the infinite once more

Cascading bronze mountains glittering in

Maple syrup drizzled lens, new sun coded

To perfection reflecting shadows of

The unreal, unseen buried as centuries

Past, engines erupted from afar, mach

Ten majesty booming from Dark Tower,

Somehow aviation lighting reaches

Honey dipped pastures, soon we will arise.

Nothing ticks within my weary brain,

i’m still alone in january militant gloom.

I shatter like ice:

trillions of crystalline opiate screams.

Gaseous giants emerge from gurgling darkness

saps of sparking light reach out like hands from a swampy grave,

Wrinkled green ham hands breach my unsettling dreams,

horrors pave scolding tar roads…

I push away incoming sunshine,

embrace blanket zombified entities,

Tendrils sail blushing black hole abyss,

one purple suctioning tentacle blinks scarred orange sun bliss,

Phoenix risen fever beams dive like assassin mermaids,

dolphins onyx pulse my screeching unconscious,

noxious green flails swirling milky way.

Burdensome to my neighboring friends

i Isolate.

Eternal sunshine bury me with Death’s mercenary occult,

let me rule afar in nebulous realms:

explode with nuclear force;

consume garlic bread with diablo breathed supernovae

spaghetti soul fusing with unraveling dimensions

i am yours,

without doubt

no question

i

am

infinite.

Vintage clothes and tar spiraled smokes

fist fights with drunken model dames,

gents swaggering inn k p o p fashion.

Pubs booming with flesh-tearing bass

early 2000s hits send kids to rage;

tequila shots and capsuled white death.

Kisses ripe strawberry blush

baroque college girls buzzin’ under green and yellow

7/11 midnight neon hush.

Around devil’s den she scurries.

bar hopping dark-curled angel veiled with

razor tongue quick to butcher my ill-heart inflections.

I swim through Seoul afraid.

winter breeze fades my bare skull;

walking miles, passing thousands.

Streets narrow, shops call in neon buzz

skyscrapers fierce, unphased by glacial breath.

Sudden winds upend my nervous den,

flaky mind dropping anxious crumbs,

break bread with yourself;

Enemies come and go,

little by little you forget yourself and

meet up in a gleaming city all unknown…

Crimson plasma soaring hazy highways adrift;

galvanic implosion divides misty abyss,

second chance to retort coming doomsday.

Soon blood will r u n

still… cold...

Palms leather bound rested on snowy peaks,

exposed grey clouds whisper ash sleet;

on wind shredded plateau we sing psalms sworn.

soon light will bind, claw stolen visage.

Like snake skin we fall

forever … slither s l o w.

Crawl spaces vermillion,

velvet warmth taps gravelly demeanor,

soft fingertips like chronic sunshine veiling void cellars;

Dilute frozen hatred with

past selves.

Alone we guide our cloned flesh famished for elapsing conscious

slide shows of traumatized prokaryotes,

hoppy malts splashing crusted walls- layers of past incursions-

sealed with demonic platelets thorned with keratin spikes.

Capillaries burst,

red cells rush.

We bury our ancient eyes resting till

sunlight punctures our eerie eyelids with cosmic radiance.

soon blood will run.

I remember that laugh.

12am shaking twist bottle caps.

Cool harbor mind deploying frigate fleets,

loading shrapnel cannon rounds.

mental artillery crashing eroded beaches.

Climb claimed machine gun nests,

rest once your weary heartbeat spits

re-sculpting fluids.

Vacay once voracious riptides,

shove hard liquors down.

Drunk to comatose depths,

swimming past layers of my room's darkness;

Laughing without

judgment.

hatred.

fear.

Sung night eccentric

tender evergreen nectar

infec.. tious…

Spread sentient liquor,

sweat of eve, revival infested.

anger swims like

Sea dragons in abyssal

canyons; burdens comet onyx

sealed, orange volcanic bliss

Covet our ghostly spirits

drifting unfinished countertops

nod at her, round up

Chivalry and spit wicked

whistle, sentient liquor

storms valhallan guts

Awake in afterlife;

unconscious fights my

snipers breath.

Caustic mind regrets,

fight time with swamped

Dimes, lost time and sickened

Seconds, lost to Beelzebub:

God reunites the visage, drink

to disunite the feelin'..