They never mention the blinding, searing pain

of disintegrating skin

Falling away from ashen bone

The brief, but brutal mourning

for the life departing

The rebirth is a new spring

New hope painted onto clear skies

An empty canvas to be filled

With want and glory

Every time she rises once more

An ethereal form from the ashes

She is more beautiful

Filled with greater strength and purpose

Certain that this will be the last

The final form

The meticulously drafted version

of herself

At last she could be done

with the burning, and reviving

With the drowning flame

Searing and reforming her shape

Again. Again. Again.

But every new hope

Is seared at the edges

And each new beginning

Always circles back to itself

An ouroboros

An endless chasing of dreams

And no matter how she tries

To dance in water

To dream in dew and grass

The fire always find her again.

And she is lost and found

and lost again

to the flames.

There’s not enough time

But too much of it

How can both things be?

I go to sleep too early now

But the insomnia still haunts me

I’m running out of time

To do those things I swore I’d do

Write the great American novel

Pen the next Broadway sensation

Write a song worthy of Dylan

Make a film to win an Oscar

Write philosophy and meaning

People care about and hear

Because they love you

And care what you think

And you’re not just the ghost of a girl

Sipping English breakfast tea

Neither in England or at breakfast

Black and bitter

Too bitter.

You left the bag in too long

But you drink it anyway

Because you deserve the bitter

You could have removed the bag

At any time.

You let it steep

So now just sleep

In the bed you've made

This is your life

In 3D IMAX view

Why am I doing this

Writing this?

What’s the point of this?

I’m wasting more time.

I don't know why I do this

I don't know why I hide

I don't know why the world outside

Makes me so terrified

Don't know when I became this

A mask trapped in the void

I don't know when to stop

I make myself so paranoid

It's all in vain

I've gone insane

No ifs or maybes

The bitch is crazy

You made the bed

So lie in it

Sleeping dogs

wake up with fleas

And darling,

you laid next to me

Read the Bible

Sued for libel

Notes on paper

Love in vapor

Everything I ever wanted

Somehow always left me haunted

Now that you're tied to my cable

Suicide

So damn unstable

I don't know why I do this

I don't know why I cried

I don't know why here at your side

I feel like I have died

Don't know when I became this

A shelved doll, just a toy

I don't know when to stop

I make myself so paranoid

It's all in vain

I've gone insane

No ifs or maybes

The bitch is crazy

You made the bed

So lie in it

Sleeping dogs

wake up with fleas

And darling,

you laid next to me

$100 t-shirt

With a band you've never heard

Shelf packed full with vinyls

Google told you which were good

Book shelf lined with classics

Pretty spines that no one's touched

A house of vintage furniture

Like a show room all done up

You'll never get it right

But, hey, at least you caught the vibe

One day these days of your life

Will be another bad fad

For them to imbibe

And you'll start to wonder why

They pick apart your life

While you're still alive

And you'll start to feel

Like you might have died

But, hey, at least they caught the vibe.

Right?

Take the poloroid picture

When your phone has better res

Watch pretentious art films

When you'd rather watch your feed instead

Go to all the biggest concerts

Watch the image through your screen

Your own two eyes won't realize

How they're missing everything

And still, you'll never get it right

But, hey, at least you caught the vibe

One day these days of your life

Will be another bad fad

For them to imbibe

And you'll start to wonder why

They pick apart your life

While you're still alive

And you'll start to feel

Like you might have died

But, hey, at least they caught the vibe.

Right?

One day your youth will be

Someone's costume jewelery

And life will start to feel

Like some long play

And some dumb girl who's half your age

Will tell you why the past's so great

Like you weren't fucking there

Back in those days

And you'll tell her

You'll never get it right

But, hey, at least you caught the vibe

One day these days of your life

Will be another bad fad

For them to imbibe

And you'll start to wonder why

They pick apart your life

While you're still alive

And you'll start to feel

Like you might have died

But, hey, at least they caught the vibe.

Right?

Wake up falling into stardust

Explosions in the sky

Firecracker burned to ash

The greatest legends die

Burn bright. Fade to night.

Fall into the black.

Up here there's no atmosphere

I'm never coming back

They're burning Rome

So play along

To the violin's sweet song

Cast the call for liberty

Then line up for the Guillotine

Back to where

We're all unsure

We pick the poison

Loathe the cure

My God, what are we living for?

Machinery rot to the core

Bad bad apples

Toss the batch

Throw out the draft

And start from scratch.

There's nothing left here to dissect.

Crucify the architect.

God will save us

From humdrum

Is that him at the podium?

Why's he got a loaded gun?

Fire and ice, a world undone.

Back to where

We're sheep in line

Biting tongues and biding time.

Just following

The leader blind

Into slaughter for his crime

Bad bad shepherd

Getting caught

He lost the flock

And lost the plot.

It leaves little room for introspect

So crucify the architect

There's nothing left here to protect

So crucify the architect.

Do you think Frankenstein regret it

The mess that he invented?

Or was the curiosity worth

All of the monstrosity?

I wonder if he desired

To be remembered and admired.

They'd talk for years about

What he could build with just two hands.

He wanted to be greater

But some hundred odd years later

The monster's myth.

But there's no mention of the man.

Just his name misrepresented

Was that always the intention?

To become one with the monster

you create?

Was it his honest reflection

Wrapped in skin and bone?

Some lesson

Just to punish a cold world

He'd grown to hate?

Move on. Move on

The past is dead and gone.

They lied in song

We can't dream on.

Beating broken hearts

Bleeding crimson and clover

I think it's safe to say

That the dream is long over

Teens without a scene

The tragedy. They won't know the

Magic in a moment

When the music meets the soul

The empty corporate salesmen

Turned the people into shells

They couldn't push a product

So they had them sell themselves

No more ads on tv shows

But play everywhere else

We're living in a simulation

Or maybe this is hell.

Had to disconnect

Just to find a connection

Unaffected

Youth infection

Mourn the past

Then carry forward

Time moves on

It won't wait for you

Left behind

The last orator

To tell the story

Of before you

Castles are crumbling

This is no movie scene

Living a fantasy

She’s living a fantasy

The world will spin madly on

As she gets lost in a song

Of all that she’s meant to have done

All she was meant to have done

Picture the portrait

And what do you see

The fragments have shattered

These pieces of me

Held all together

With the thinnest of strings

But the girl’s come undone

Beautiful lies

That sound nice in my head

But fairytales fail

And the hero is dead

An emptied out shell

Masquerades in her stead

And the girl’s come undone

Lost in the memory

Of who she used to be

Or who she never was

Or who she never was

Paints herself into prose

The greatest of all heroes

That’s all she ever does

That’s all she ever does

Girl comes undone

Girl comes undone

She has no one

Left with no one

Holding the gun

Picked her poison

Left with no one

Girl comes undone

Circles, Cycles

I’ll never break the chain

I have this habit

That’s never gonna break

I want you, haunt you

Burn you at the stake

Just a toy

To destroy

I'll beat you at your game

Love, hate

Choice, fate

Read the tarot cards

Pull death

Lose breath

Then shatter into shards

Of what was

Of us

A bullet in the heart

Bleed out

Bleed out

Tear yourself apart

Love to hate you

Revel in the pain

Build you break you

A toxin to your brain

Picked your poison

It’s driving you insane

But you’re for torture

Darling, I’m the same

Bleed red

Drop dead

be forever mine

chosen roses

thorn prick on a vine

lovely

crime spree

Bonnie to your Clyde

Precious

Meth head

Twisted valentine

Seedy treaties

I had to turn you in

Your time, my crime

Punished for my sin

You’re free, find me

Back around again

Carousel from hell

That never seems to end

Ropes and ribbons

Tie us in a bow

Sins unforgiven

Notch on a bedpost

Blackened bruises

Remind me of your ghost

I brave to crave you

The one I love the most