Life Feels Lighter
Home is where your heart is
That's what they all say
But to me, home isn't a set place
It's the warmth I feel within your embrace
The way the world morphs into a brighter place as you ramble about your day
How your laughter is carried through the wind's ginger grace
You take some of the weight of the world away
And even though life is a continuous gray
I hope I get to see your smile each day
That’s what you said
It was a late weekday night and I was moping with a friend
And although I don't remember the exact words they said
The conversation will always linger in my head
Romance is dead
they cried
face beet red
But I stopped to think
That simply isn't true
As I slowly glance, I see love in the bleakest of places too
Awe stricken commentary revering the moon
Serendipitous sighs as the sky shifts pastel hues
Smiles accompanied by the rare Florida breeze
And laughs and astonishment with camaraderie between peers
Love is everywhere, that much I can tell
But emotions are a tangle we don't know too well
Even though finding the one is an arduous flop
We can appreciate the enthusiasm and unfiltered love that surrounds us all
Simply by listening to the world's subtle pleas and reprimands
To slowly explore and find what satisfies our heart's demands
Forget Me Please
When my funeral comes, I hope no one sheds a tear
After all, the moment I’ve been waiting for my whole life is finally here
Erase my accolades and forget about my career
That’s not what I want to be remembered for
It’s kinda weird
I detest the thought of being revered
I could care less about how many hours I clocked
Or how many certificates adorn my beige walls
Please don’t reminisce about my smile
It’s just a mask
There’s no need to pine over the past
I just want to depart quietly
My time is up
And yours is not
Make the most of what you got
Consistency
Being spontaneous made me feel happy. The allure of uncertainty whispered a multitude of charming possibilities. I strode along aimlessly hoping for the chance of something happening serendipitously.
At least that’s how I felt before I met you.
I used to adore change but now I crave consistency. People come and go but I’m hoping your company will always feel like home. The crinkle in your smile and the glimmer in your eyes will never cease to make my heart rate rise. Simply being with you gives me motivagion to push through all sorts of tribulations and trials.
How you act may change with time. Change is inevitable. However, I’m confident that the inspiration you instill in others remains the sams.
I invite you to stay by my side even as life ebbs and flows with the tides.
Fate is fickle but one thing’s for sure. My adoration for you will linger forevermore.
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TL;DR- Failed poetic rizz attempt
Escapril 9, 2023: Advertisement
Pacing back and forth between the infamous liminal space of a 7/11 at midnight made me realize...
How much my clunky, junky wallet could actually buy
Although most of it consisted of wrinkled receipts and expired coupons,
a crumpled stack of fives was still enough to buy
A dozen cups of instant ramen
A handful of M and Ms
Fruit roll ups for miles
Stale plastic wrapped pastries suddenly seem worthwhile
Or if I was feeling more umami today
I could snag a carton of three dollar fries
A can of pringles and a questionable packet of microwave fried rice
All these bold yellow price stickers highlighted the perfect advertisement for my demise
Fingertips
How much has slid out of my grasp?
I think of the myriad of memories held beneath these spiral ridges
Dusty house keys, smooth ivory, brass knobs
Shattered glass, melted snow, front dew dotting my windows and lawn
Stubborn acrylic that refuses to wash off and cooking oil seething to the touch
Callouses emerging because I practiced a tad bit too much
Steel strings digging deeply and way too rough
And yet the all these memories can't hold a candle to the whiplash I felt
When I finally had to discern your ginger embrace wasn't heartfelt
At all
Hopeless Romantic Facade
Beneath that smitten gaze lies an ebbing ache that won’t go away
That isn’t faith brimming in your eyes
It’s the look of pining throughout the night
Pondering all the what ifs and whys
As your heart unravels all the soft spoken words that have turned out to be rosy veiled lies
Would you be able to relive this time when your heart went alight?
Or is this always doomed to end in lingering spite?
As the stars begin to overtake the sky
The soft fusillade against your ribcage rouses awake again
And the throbbing pain wraps its cordons around your psyche once more
It’s a phantom pain that seems benign
Yet it constantly looms over and waxes with each passing moment
Continuing on and on forevermore
Fortunately, rumination is only transient
As all things do, this internal turmoil has to rest
Even if it’s just a fleeting instance of relief
The sorrow finally beckons you goodnight
And finally the dawn’s silence makes everything feel alright
Just for a moment
You can still smile
Escapril Day 1: Vision of the Future
When you peer through a stream, what do you see?
Is it a clear image etched in rippling glass?
Or a foggy picture clouded by debris?
Time is a endless series of movements
Varying by intensity
Visions are capricious, fickle fiends
Fate ebbs and flows
Misfortune starts to unravel endlessly
Then serendipity passes by unexpectedly
No matter what the future holds
Sometimes you’ll just have to live spontaneously
So buckle down and mosey along
Just embrace your destiny