Panic attack
Sharp!
Sharper than the biggest knife
Sharper than the heaviest sword
Like a dagger stabbing in me
Right into the center of my heart
Gasp!
Gasping for clean and fresh air
Longing for oxygen in my lungs
Like a way maker finding its way
Right to the heart of my existence
Shake!
Shaking off the fear which has grip on me
Fearing of being lonely and alone
Wishing for someone who understands
me and my heart truly, fully and deeply
Breathe!
Breathing deeply again so I’m back alive
Thinking clearly of who I really am
Of what I already have in my life
Being blessed of the love around me
Think!
Thinking of all the lovely people around me
who give me their love, care and support
Cherishing them in my sensitive heart
They put with their love the sharp dagger
out of my broken and fragile heart…
…softly
Waiting room
A room, a place, a space
where there’s no clock
only the time of life
It tells you the seasons
The seasons of a human life
The summer of jubilation
The fall of letting go
The winter of grieving
The spring of a new beginning
It takes a lot of patience
to get the next season of life
During that waiting
You can discover yourself
of who you actually are
Where’s patience nowadays?
Everything needs to be fast
Hurry, busy, carelessly
But the seasons are coming
and going on their own pace
Patience is the key of life
It is taking its own time
Slowly, properly, calmly
The seasons are thriving on it
and they move with you
Acknowledge the seasons
in your own busy life
Stand still for a moment
and wait for its change
Give yourself a pause
Live in the here and now
Where there’s no past
Where there’s no future
Where there’s no clock
Only the time of life
Wait for a moment…
Memories…
Memories
We have lots of them
Some we want to keep
Some we don’t want to remember
But each one of them
is a treasure
Each one of them
lies a beauty in it
The most beautiful ones
wanting to keep them
in a box on a shelf
The most painful ones
wanting to dig them
deep in the ground
But each one of them
is helping you
to feel
to grow
to let go
Letting go
of each one of them
Giving them a place
beautiful and painful ones
Then you will overcome
So you can learn
from the painful ones
And you can cherish
from the beautiful ones
Because each memory
must to remember
to give a place
a space
so you can move on
with your beautiful life
Full of new ones
You’ll have lots of them
Memories
Just staring away…
Looking out at the window
but I don’t see anything
just colors and movements
My eyes choose a point
to stand still and think
Thinking about what I miss
Missing someone in my life
Living without you to hold me
Holding on with my own beat
Beating slowly with my life
My eyes are still dreaming away
Hoping to find you back
In the colors and movements
but I don’t see you there
when I look out at the window
Old pictures…
Old, fragile pictures
to collect them in a box
To remember
and to cherish
to pick up the box
whenever you want
to relive memories
or easily to forget them
covered by dust
But nowadays
why to cherish
those valuable moments?
You bring memories
with you in your pocket
wherever you go
every single day
Until you’re going to realize
some pictures will tore
open wounds over time
of loss and sadness
as if you carry them
as a burden in your pocket
wherever you go
every single day
Then you wish you had them
as old, fragile pictures
to collect them in a box
Not remembering
and cherishing them
but to put the box
in a deep closet
easily to forget them
covered by thick dust…
Heart (part 2)
Hold it close
in your chest
like wings
around it
Protect it
Nurture it
Feed it
Let it grow
Give it attention
Good attention
just to be
who you really are
Because it’s time
to heal
to be held
to be helped
Just be
proud of yourself
Just know
you’re beautiful
Because it’s all
hidden inside
written deeply in
You…
Heart
It’s like a treasure
hidden deep within a shell
of layers of your skin
Everyone is looking
for that precious pearl
hidden inside of you
But no one knows the value
of this hidden treasure
So be careful of its worth
Because everyone wants it
to take it away from you
to take advantage of it
But you know better
how much valuable
this precious pearl is
Protect it with your soul
Guide it with your body
And teach it with your mind
Because beneath the layers
of your beautiful skin
lies a most valuable treasure:
You…
Scars…?
You feel shattered
Broken
In pieces
As if you need
to be glued
together
as one piece
As if you need
to be whole
again
as one thing
Hidden things
your heart
and soul
only know
Painful memories
Some hard
to bear
or to forget
But remember
Every scar
tells you
a secret
Secrets of life
Every scar
is a sign
of growth
Growth in life
Every scar
healed
bonded
glued itself
over time
You’ll feel
as a whole
like a vase
shattered
and being
glued again
A cloak of love
At night
At night it is dark
Thoughts are haunting you
Sometimes you can feel alone
But then…
Then you feel the warmth
The warmth of love
As a cloak around you
A cloak of love
That’s embracing you
You don’t feel alone anymore
It gives you hope
New hope
Hope of light
Light in the darkness
like a candle flickering
At night