My life doesn’t feel like a life but like the heaviness of letting sadness in
There is a feeling I cannot explain
It exists in the taste of poetry on my tongue
Or the sound soft voices harmonizing
It is the feeling of being in a quiet church
With stain glass windows pouring glass on me
It is the bite of lemon on my tongue and ice crunching in my teeth
Wind in my hair
It is a feeling of existing
It exists at 8:03 pm at the cross of martyrs as the sunsets
It exists at Ragle park on a bench in the grass
It exists in fairy lights and the smell of rain
The heavy touch inside my ribcage
It is the feeling that I get when I taste “I love you” on my lips
It is breathing and burning and soreness in my thighs
It is something more than metaphors can explain
It is painful and heavy and it hurts so much but I pray to god it never goes away