this is why

sometimes i’m not. and sometimes i am. yes i was like that yesterday, and today i am not. i will not waste my energy on the thought of yesterday when i can be whoever i want right now. I’m forever changing. going back and forth. fighting and accepting. I’m a walking contradiction, a notorious truth seeker, brave at one moment and whimpering the next. I’m peaceful, yet terrified. complete, yet broken. awake, but dreaming. here, then gone. this is why i am hard to love.