Learning from the Past

I didn’t want you to leave, I wasn’t ready for you to leave, so I made sure that you didn’t.

I kept you hidden in my closet, your presence mingling with others that have tried leaving me in the past. Giving all of you the chance to bond over the fact that for whatever reason, I just wasn’t good enough for you.

All of the experiences I had with you sit in that box in the closet, something for me to go back to when I’m old and have lived more of my life. Then, when I’m ready, I can pull out all those boxes out in my old age and smile at all the jokes and memories we made together. Truly appreciate all the experiences and people that have shaped me.

But for now, I push you out of my sight, out of mind, because I’m not ready for that yet. For now, all I can do is close the closet door and hope for the best.

Inspired by:

“We will grow old as friends/ I’ve promised that before/So what’s one more/In our grey-haired circle/Waiting for the end”

-Dodie Clark “Sick of Losing Soulmates”