betrayal

she lied to me

honeyed words dripping with malice that i failed to detect in her tone, smooth and sweet as molasses

she pretended to be on my

side

she deceived me

tormented me with empty promises

she made use of my naive mind.

thinking that ostracising me was the best way to put me down

well, sad to say she was not at all wrong.

thinking that i would crumble

thinking that i would fall

that i was weak, puny and small

she was right all along.

of course i could not take it, you idiot,

only six years of experience did i have.

of course your words would pierce my heart,

why else do you think i cried every night for

three lonely years?

ha, you really think it’s possible for me to stand up for myself?

what can i do

fight back?

just to receive physical blows in addition to the verbal ones they pile upon me?

i was one against seventeen

the popular clique.

superficial and heartless

they managed to quash my spirit, there was no more hope for me

no, of course i’m not okay

why do you think i slit my wrists every night?

they tempted her with the key to popularity, the way to become all she had ever wanted to be, seduced her to the dark side; took away my only star in the night sky

she became a tormentor as well

became one of them.

instead of the best friend she had once been

she turned into yet another faceless tormentor

an empty shell, hollowed out by the greed of popularity

a mere apparition of her previous being

with her gone

not a soul

will reach out and give me respite

my only light is extinguished; i have no more light to see with

i cannot go any further lest i trip and fall and lose my balance and fall deep deep down into a bottomless abyss that no one is willing to pull me out from

i have no drought