foxhole god; still a God.
January 08, 2017
To: those left to understand these words,
The time has come, no more jokes, no more prophecies, the end is here. And I don’t know what else to do but write; I was told as a young child that was my purpose. I was told, like the authors of the bible/s, I will someday have something to say which would save lives. And so, I won’t write about my fear, and my children’s fear, what they look like and how we're surviving, but rather I’ll write about what I have been told and warned of over the last 37 years. I will write what they tell me to write, and I will share what they kindly give to me to share with you, the reader.
“...write down the revelation and make it plain on tablets so that a herald may run with it.”
The spirits started telling me years ago it was time to start preparing for our departure. I first responded to these warnings by storing food and water, and even weapons, in secret from my husband. I was even baptized, so I thoroughly read the New Testament; out of respect, to avoid being completely ignorant, and let’s be honest, to speak intelligently when challenged (I've done my share of challenging believers). So, FYI to those that haven't actually read them—this shit that's going down right now—well, it's all outlined in those pages. And all we well-educated know-it-alls continually mocked it, too smart for it of course. We were all certain that God and the Bible/s were nonsense for the rednecks and brainwashed weaklings that needed a crutch to deal with life. And Hollywood makes a complete joke out of it, like a drug for the masses, Walking Dead was soaked up by those smarter than the powers of our maker/s. But, you know what I’ve learned on my journeys here on Earth? God gives you what you ask for, and often there is no changing your mind—and so viewers asked for it. “Ohh…that season wasn’t gory enough…please more zombies killing people.” Who’s laughing now? Game of Thrones nailed it with the White Walkers. The irony is there are dead-walking-people all around us, it’s just that not everyone can see them, feel them and hear them. But we all sense them, whether we admit to the reality of it or not. In every mirror there is a spirit looking back through you, at you. In every child there is a message you need to hear. All those teenagers and users at the dispensaries are well aware of them. And the military has known for decades, the government is behind the push and legalization in "First Colorado" and then California; all part of their attempt to weed out the weak-minded, for they quickly get labeled schizophrenic. Pun completely intended.
I’m told the zombies are a visual of those that can no longer be contained in "hell." The more lives they take over to their side, the more power they have as a whole, and without power they have nothing, no hell to go back to and no earth to take over. I also am told that those that have a spiritual connection with their maker, be it God, Jesus, Buddha or the Sea Goddess Tara, are safe. You can be safe from an eternity on earth.
I asked about my children and they won’t respond. Spirits don’t answer questions, they give you questions to ask, and then provide the answers. It’s really a one-way communication. My great-grandparents were born in Budapest and came here over 100 years ago. I remember my great-grandmother use to sit in the basement for hours with a hard drink and have long conversations with the local priest. She didn't fit the guidelines of his beliefs, but she told him things he needed to know, things he couldn't get anywhere else. My grandparents built a house on their large piece of land here in California. The first one burned to the ground, so my grandmother built a brick house, and a bomb shelter. She told me when I was young this day would come. She said the dead would rise from behind the "curtain" and walk in plain sight among the living. They would talk and walk like humans, and then a day would come when their true nature would reveal itself. Her daughter, my grandmother, promised I had no reason to worry, that our "DNA" was a carefully designed code; that we come here with a purpose to fulfill. We come from a royal line on the other side. Royalty from where we come is not of earthly material riches, but royalty of peace, joy, love and happiness. We come from a smooth place with no loss, sadness or tears, a place which pulses with creativity and the many lights of our maker/s. Not everyone comes from where we were developed, but I'm promised, everyone can go back with us.
Science is great, but it doesn’t disprove God, and God doesn’t disprove science. God is a word in our language, but it does not come close to the truth of our maker/s. And so criticism is an easy out for many that need certainty; but the real issue is that science cannot explain what is not scientific. Just as science cannot explain the emotion one feels when they gaze at a painting, or hear a melody that takes them to another time and place. Science cannot and will not ever explain art, in the same way science cannot and will not ever explain existence.
We can only do our best with the information we are given, and each of us has our own set of data transmitted--received and sent. And so if you're reading this, if you've made it this far, it might mean you were meant to hear these words; maybe your maker, maybe the same as my God, brought you to this page, to these words. Take heed reader, I am told to write this for you; if you can feel it, if you can sense it, if you can't escape the nagging, then it’s time for you. But you'll have to give up your ego and self-righteousness, your pride and fear of being wrong. You'll have to set aside the conforming you've done to fit in this world and let your maker transform you, into you. Let your human programming be removed from your soul, let your reality be what you feel and what you are, not who and what you're told to be.
If you ever want to leave this planet, now’s the time to completely give up your desire to fit in, and your need to be right. You will not know a spiritual connection if you are seeking fact and knowledge, or if you are mad at the idea of a God. But if you are seeking something which you do not know its core, if you are being pulled and you can't say what's connected to its end, your maker is seeking your attention. If you are seeking and you cannot find what draws you, if you fill your unknown desires with drink, or sex, or drugs, television or food, if you seek a purpose which has no name and only ends in disappointments, you are being called to; your maker is perfectly magnetized to only you. Just turn around dear.
It’s simple to start, when you have fear, doubt or any emotion which takes over your thoughts, repeat this simple prayer: Just in case you’re out there "God," please show me the way, reveal your presence to me once again, for I ignored you before, but I will not ignore you now. I doubt, but that is because I do not remember your love for me. For someone special is known to have said: “It is not the healthy who need a doctor, but the sick. I have not come to call the righteous, but the sinners.” It is not what our children do or don’t do that make us love them; we love them no matter what. And when they are weak we love them harder, we show them more of our love, so that they know and see their own worth.
Sometimes you have to allude to things in order to communicate its true meaning. The condition of intellect is a disease in the realm of spirits, spirituality, the universe and the God/s. Life is quite difficult when you think you understand it.
Your connection will first come in emotions, which cannot be explained with man-made words, nor taught with insightful curriculum. Words just get in the way of emotions; but ask for it, pay attention to your environment, the words of others, and most importantly: your thoughts, and you will be found. Your thoughts which have no words hold the deepest of truths. Be warned reader: once you connect to your maker/s, you cannot disconnect. Once you ask for its love, it will show it until you fully receive it.
You were meant for far more than you have, and far more than what you are, today; you were never made or meant to be an earthling for all of eternity. But Only You can know for certain.
It's not how long you believed, but that you believed at all. --Wizard of Words