Midnight Misgivings
Midnight and the whispers begin...
Resist temptation, be absolved of your sin.
Self-Doubt & Self-Hatred wave hello.
Indecision ponders which way I should go.
My dark, bitter heart has grown a hard shell.
Paralyzing Fear emits a palpable smell.
Anxiety strangles, it robs me of breath.
Prince Charming took off, now I love Death.
Jealousy's biting with her sharpest teeth.
Cowardice keeps me pinned underneath.
Insecurity's loud, demanding attention;
Insecurity breeds crippling apprehension.
Vanity in beauty, beauty is my Shame.
Pain pulsates into Pleasure,
I like them both the same.
Regret keeps me locked in choices I made.
Pride has grown weary, battered & frayed.
The questions I ask seek your validation....
The love I lament seeks your degradation.....
The Darkness offers his blackest embrace....
Jesus Our Lord offers His Saving Grace.
I stumble, tripped up by my contradictions.
Self-destruction's my drug,
and I feed my addictions.