Nighttime thoughts

these 14 years I created a bubble for me. A bubble of false security, comfort. And I made myself to believe that I was happy in that bubble.

But then, I understood that if I had to achieve something, I had to be out of the bubble and I was losing friends with my attitude.

I tried coming out of it, but it was hard. I was kinda stuck in between. I was out of the bubble, but caught infection by the new environment.

I started feeling uncool and unpopular. When I was in my bubble, my comfort zone, I didn't care if I was cool or popular or a nerd. But when I was stuck in between,trying to come out of the bubble, I realized that what I was trying, was getting noticed. I was self-conscious and tried pleasing people.

The life has gone bad. I feel like I did bad by not staying where I was.

Are these the obstacles in my path or this is the way life is outside, is this what people call the world?

I don't want to get stuck in between and it feels uncool now to go back in my comfort zone.