Bathtub Gin .....

she listens to the clock go tick tock

and her hands get all clammy;

and her palms are soaked;

it's as if she's holding the ocean in her hands

she gets palpitations

and she knows it's time

she quietly creeps down the creaky old stairs

and saunters down the dark corridor

she wiggles the handle on the bathroom door

it groans open

she walks to the bathtub

and kneels down

she brings her hands together

and bows her head

she begins to pray to God,

the mighty man living above

she begins to plead

she tells him how sorry she is for sinning

she tells him how sorry she is for making her mom cry, last night, because of the hateful words she said

but her mother doesn't know how hard it is to make your voice sound soft when there's a fire burning your esophagus with hellish words of sin

she's never pleaded to God in her life, because she never really believed, but tonight was different

she felt as if there was a voice inside of her telling her to let everything everything out and not keep everything bottled up inside

she took all of her clothes off,

if she was going to be naked with God about herself

about what she's done

why not be naked, completely?

after another hour or two of confessions

she decided NOW is the time, the time to end everything, the time to end what she was becoming

she filled the bathtub to the rim

she stood there for a moment

and watched her reflection twinkle

and for a moment the water seemed as if it were a sheet of glass

she stepped into it, one step at a time

and, finally, sat down

she closed her eyes and thought long and hard about her decision

this caused the veins on her forehead to pop out in anger

she plugged her nose

and slid down far enough into the water to cover her whole body, completely

this was the end

in the moment of her last thought, she told everyone she loved them

and in the morning they can take a taste of her because she'll no longer be a person, she'll now be bathtub soup called bathtub gin .....

(K.M.M.)