Prologue

As I stand on the ledge, looking down towards the ground, I feel peaceful. I feel serenity. I feel free. I glance back to see the door, open and vacant, leading back down into the building. There was no turning back.

Goosebumps crawl up my legs as I feel the cool breeze against my back from 47 stories above the streets of New York, almost as if it's encouraging me to fall. Finally, it can be over.

Holding my journal tightly against my chest, I remember all it holds. All the pain, deceit, suffering, regret. It's amazing it can all be displayed inside this book. It's amazing it all fit inside my heart for so long, too. It can finally be free, and so can I.

I close my eyes, and lean forward. The sound of wind crescendos in my ears, filling my head with sound. I feel my body falling through the air, like the final piece of sand to the bottom of an hourglass.

My eyes filled with tears, or maybe it was just from the wind. Either way, I was more happy than anything. Ready to experience whatever comes after I land. I fall until I hear the bang. It strikes me moments before the pain, followed by feeling as though there is a soft cushion beneath me. Then, everything goes black.