Lost Heart

I felt my phone vibrate in the back pocket of my skin tight jeans. I was scared to look at it for more than one reason. I reached down and silenced it before my teacher heard it. The thought of the words that were in that message frightened me. As I walked to lunch I dreaded the moments in the near future. It was amazing how just a few words coming from a piece of technology could have so much significance. As I sat down, I pulled my phone out of my pocket and turned it on. The word "message" appeared on the screen. I opened it and read the heart-breaking words. "I never wanted you." I slouched down in the chair and closed my eyes. I slowly opened my eyes and continued to read. "I never wanted you. You aren't worth it. I just wanted what you could give me." My eyes filled with tears. The person I loved, didn't love me. He didn't want me. I thought it was real. I thought that he loved me back. But it was all a lie. He used me for what he wanted until I was no longer of use. I was an object to him. He used me until he no longer wanted me and could throw me away. He just got what he wanted and then moved on. He promised me so many things. He promised love. He got me to love him so that I would do what he wanted. I wasted so many things on him. I wasted my heart on him. I will find someone who cares for me. He will just go through as many as he can, but he will never find the right one.