Selfishness vs Giving

This is dedicated to my friend @Tylasmith

I do not usually hang my laundry for the world to see, but I do this in order that it may help someone. Here it is.

Being served divorce papers the day after my birthday.  

Is not my idea of a happy birthday! 

After being with someone 25 years. 

Coming home after work and everything gone. 

And I mean everything! 

Light bulbs and all. 

 All but the dog and my clothes. 

Left with a mountain of debt. 

The house and car payments not being paid in 6 months. 

I had to ask my father for a loan. 

Would rather have my kneecaps broke with a baseball bat, 

To have to suffer that I told you so look. 

Though never said the look was enough. 

I thought my life was over. 

I thought my well of giving was deep enough 

To slake your thirst of selfishness. 

But it wasn't! 

Trying to empty the ocean with a thimble. 

Never satisfied never content!  

Never knew the value of blessed subtractions,

Until now! 

I thought that day was the worst in my life, but I realize now it was a great day. 

To be rid of selfishness that could not be satiated. 

I know now I wasn't happy

Working day and night for her happiness, 

Giving everything I had for her. 

Now I'm debt free and happy and able to give to those in need the way I want too. 

This is to say we all have baggage.

We all have our own demons.

It's not about how many times you get knocked down, it's about how many times you get up!

I regret my marriage failed but I am in a much better place now than I was then.