Stay?
Stay in this room with me, this shaking, breaking room.
Stay behind the windows, made of bars, made of bones, made of me.
I swear to you I am trying.
But my voice is hoarse and I don't know why.
Is it the sickness or because I've been screaming? I don't know why.
Neighbors, friends, I apologize. The shrieks must make it hard to sleep at night.
Forgive me, I am breaking my fingers one by one.
Stay in the water with me. Drown with me, float with me.
Stay on this cloud of jellyfish that stings every centimeter of my body.
The pain can feel nice if you let it and the burn can feel right if you fight it.
Stay.
I need a hand to grasp and a heart to pull out, let me be your siren.
I can hear your heart in the rain and when it beats against my skin it reminds me of you.
I don't go out in rainstorms anymore.
But the sun burns me so I wrap myself in bubblewrap for protection.
Careful the seasons have teeth.
Careful the boys always have teeth.