The Other One
There's this Girl inside of me,
Inside of my
Head,
Usually silent,
Locked away, in the
Deepest, darkest
Crevices of my mind,
Waiting for a chance to
Consume me,
Engulf me,
Pull me under.
There's this Girl inside of me,
And despite her
Ear splitting silence,
I never forget that she's there,
For I can always feel her presence,
Like a constant hum
Akin to the sound
Of a car driving in the distance,
Being heard by hypersensitive ears;
So far, but so... there.
And I fear this Girl in my head,
Mor than Fire,
Or Water,
More than Physical Pain,
Or Death;
More than any Deity
Or Devil;
For once She erupts
From her dormant state,
She drags me, the real me,
Into the back of my mind,
And locks me inside of a cage
As she forces me
To watch as she weaves
A path of destruction,
A wave of hurt,
Throughout my life,
Hurting my parents,
My brothers,
My family,
My friends...
Hurting me.
They see Her,
Her violence,
Her anger,
Her haters
And they think that
She is a part of... me.
That hurts,
Because she isn't;
She's another being entirely,
Sharing my body,
My temple,
My home.
She's a brutal force,
A demonic entity,
A Hurricane,
Volcanic Eruption,
And Tsunami in one,
And I fear Her,
Along with the power she yields;
The ability to
Tear my life into shreds
With just he snap of Her
Filthy, clawed fingers.
The most petrifying part of living
With this demon who I abhor,
Is never knowing when she'll return
To consume me once more.
By Aliyah Abrahams