So I Said “Have It Your Way,” And Now You’re Stuck In A Poem.
and as lonely boy goes back to
lonely girl
their skin touches but it's not the first time
he collapses onto her
but it's not the first time
he knows the map of her body
inside, mostly inside
and out.
and he knows her favourite places to be touched
and touching her is what he knows best
inside, mostly inside
and out.
her heart
if you can imagine it
does not beat the same pulse
you would
skip down the street with,
let's say.
more like
a feeling you're
trying to show
and no one believes you
and you make fountains of
your eyes
and no one can see you
being sincere.
that pace.
that slow monotonous drone
of pity and a whole lot of empathy
but no touch that makes you think
'I am loveable'
so her heart doesn't pulse
a normal beat
it goes in such a way
that would make you wonder
if it's even beating at all
'the weather is nice'
but it's raining.
they still same the damn thing
anyways.
no matter what.
so this life you live
(keep in mind you are
growing)
is seeming to be more and more like
a stencilaformatawaytobe
a way to be
without the need of lonely boy.
with feeling his touch
inside, mostly inside
and out.
(but he's alone in the city, he's asleep in the ground. he is nothing, he is nothing he is nothing ....
do you know what he's dreaming about?
it's not you,
it won't ever be you.
if you can imagine,
and I know this might be hard to take,
but lonely boy
just can't love lonely boy
more than he loves you.
so now you regret being one with your own life
seeing things for how they are
once you moved from the frame
he was ready to take that picture
so what's it going to be?
and lonely boy
and lonely girl
collapse onto each other
familiar geographies
are really quite
soothing
and so her heart beats
slowly
crescendo.
inevitable heartbreak.
and it's alright.