The Fall
I’ve been falling for a while now, deeper and deeper into – nothing.
I am alone. No, it’s much more than that: I see no one. I hear no one. I feel no…thing.
I guess that’s the punishment He decided to give me for his own mistakes. Wonderful. What an idiot!
I can’t even remember how long it’s been since he banished me, but I do now that all the pain I felt in that moment is gone. Out of all the living and non-living things he was the only one who managed to make me numb.
‘This is your own fault, Lucifer.’ He said right before he threw me out of Heaven. I was so mad. I only loved him, after all. He is the one who created love, yet he got mad at me for feeling it. Isn’t that how things work?
God was always the one to have a quick temper out of the two of us. That’s why we were the perfect couple for such a long time. Nobody seemed to get it, but we did: I told him that everything good needs a part of bitterness so it can be truly felt. He got angry at first, but he liked to listen to me talk, so after a while he realized I was right.
‘I could listen to you all day.’ He used to say. ‘You’re such a bittersweet woman.’
‘I’m not a woman and you know it.’ I replied as I kissed his lips. ‘I’m an angel.’
But I guess I am a woman now, since he ripped my wings and forced me into darkness. I grew a body now, I’m not an entity anymore. And I know that idiot did it on purpose. Damn him!
Was I jealous? Well, of course. Isn’t everyone?
I was not human. My feelings used to reach other intensities. When God gets angry he throws floods and storms and earthquakes. All I did was speak my mind. I hope those humans turn against him soon!
When he created Eve for Adam he said he wants them to be just as happy as we were. Well, I hope they turn out just as happy as we are. Because I know the only reason he got so angry is because he got so hurt. He loved me so much, didn’t he? So did I.
Do you hear me, love? I loved you. And you made me numb. Swallow that.
I’ve been falling for an eternity. He’s been sleeping for one.
And I finally reached the ground.