Neko

Whenever the sky is up and it's sunny outside

You can usually count on me to barricade myself inside

Lock myself in and let myself lose

And videos'll possibly eat away at my feelings inside

Sometimes, I'm just as blown out as the fuse

And I can tell you that I'm not that happy

Sure, I can write, I can speak, I can record myself

But I don't bother to put on a mask anyway

Rather I would want you to see what I'm truly feeling as is

I think the mask has expired today

And I can tell you that I stare at my eyes

Why did it have to be brown, I wonder

I sometimes envy those who have different colors than mine

But the color reminds me of acorns or peanuts

And I'm lost in that sea without anything to whine

And I can tell you I'm lazy most of the time

Because I want some time to think and to be myself for a while

Granted, the IGM starts to take the wheel sometimes

And it feels contemporary to think about it that way

I'll do what I'm told but I would like some kind of day off

And I can tell you that I don't know much anime

Hell, I don't even know that much compared to dedicated fans

But what I can tell you is the plot and characters are what I focus on

Without them, it's as good as a doorstep

By the way, who won?

I miss the old days when I could stay awake until morning

When I was living next to friendly neighbors

And I was hooked onto Chvrches and Flume,

I didn't discover Porter Robinson or Madeon then

Come to think of it, I only had one catchy dance tune

Nowadays, I'm an introverted human with autism and ADHD

It's a miracle that I can even talk and act normal

I have some friends that are close to me

And one that I want to see soon enough

For now, there's no place I'd rather be

There are days when the world wars within my mind

And I go home exhausted, up to my room alone

I wait to talk to someone I haven't talked to right of the bact

Mother calls, dinner calls and then sleep calls

And I go to bed curled up, I sleep like a cat