The ultimate problem

What's a fate worse than death. A fate in which you crave the sweet release of death?

It's torture. Not the kind you would think if. Bored

How in gods name, you may ask, is this worse than death.

Being bored is both a temporary and permanent state.

Temporary is fixable and manageable.

The boredom that kills, is permanent. How am I supposed to want to continue if I'm not excited in the things I do. if I'm bored with the every day activities.

No I am not sad. No I don't need more adventure.

I need something more, I need to be beyond what is being offered or nothing at all.

Books offer this freedom, for a fleeting moment though. Once it's gone the Borden seeps back in. The apocalypse, magic, different dimensions- something that can take me away. Away from this world. Away from this bored little world.