Layers

0- No layers have appeared. I'm an innocent soul.

1- First layer arrives age 7. Saw a skinny girl and have officially started dieting. Fat layer trimmed to perfection. 

2- Teased for my skin. Acne washes, toners and creams drown my pores. Still maintaining previous layer. 

3- Dark hair has appeared. Implement routine consisting of razors, shaving cream, bleach and wax. Previous layers maintained. 

4- Hair removal and insecurities irritate skin. Use of coverup necessary according to a friend. PLM.

5- Sudden stench hits body and in order to maintain svelte physique must include anti-perspirant. PLM.

6- Coverup creating more acne. Add two more layers of foundation and powder to keep up. PLM.

7- Although I have naturally long and dark eyelashes other girls use mascara and fake lashes so I must implement to keep up with the competition. Starting to fall in love...PLM. 

8- Love hurts. Raising walls in my heart. PLM.

9- Sleepless nights filled with anxiety. Eye cosmetics necessary. PLM

10- I'm not happy. Treat myself to a new scent. PLM

11- Gaining weight. Develop a hateful attitude towards food and count calories in my sleep. PLM.  

12- Go on a retreat. Want to be healthy. PLM

13- Not where I want to be in life. At least I have my layers which are meticulously maintained.

14- Social media filling emptiness. Likes are necessary for feeling good. PLM.

15- Fashion sweeps into my life. Smart clothes compensate for mental neglect. PLM

16- Hair could be better. Thank goodness for online tutorials. PLM.

17- Met a nice guy. PLM.

18- Not sure what nice guy sees in me. PLM.

19- Nice guy still around. PLM.

20- Feeling happier. Most days maintaining previous layers. 

21- In the hospital. Health not so well. Nice guy around. Previous layers can't be maintained in hospital. Emotional wreck. Searching my inner self for value.

22- In love. Getting married. Losing weight for wedding. Hating the layers that distance me from love.

23- Nice guy showed me I'm intelligent. Reading more and challenging my intellect. Enjoying this new layer. People say I look happy. 

24- Writing and researching Human Rights. Falling in love with the topic. Reading about the dignity of individuals. Maintaining layers some days. 

25- Wrote an awesome thesis on Human Rights! Smiling more these days. 

26- Learning new words of love and encouragement for myself and those around me. Now I have a wedding band to match my engagement ring!

27- Pregnant. Fatigue harming layers. Going to work without make-up, hair done or even well fitted clothes. Feeling the inner glow of another little life. 

28- Eating good food and enjoying wonderful times with Husband. Excited for our future baby.

29- Haven't cared for layers in months. The mirror doesn't reflect who I am. I'm a soul with her own sense of dignity. I love deeply and am loved greatly. 

30- I'm a new mother in love with the little soul in my arms. Layers will never again determine my worth.