Silent secrets.

The first time I was able to remember you

I was still a little girl.

Sitting on the table in the doctor's office

I’m ready for my check up.

I've been here before and I'm not scared

Until the doctor lifts up my shirt.

Darkness floods my mind

And all I see is you.

My parents didn't understand

Why I was screaming in fear

But I'm sure the doctor blamed them.

I have not slept through one night

Since this first incident,

Where you haven't tormented me.

I have not felt one hand upon my skin

That I can trust

Since that day you silenced me

And stole my life away.

I've carried our secret with me

Up until this point.

But I'm so tired

And this just steals more of me

Every single day.

I don't know how to break my silence

Even if I wanted to

Because I know speaking the truth

Will never fix this damage.

You're the face responsible

For the flashbacks

That now control me.

Justice has been served

On behalf of another

And you finally got what you deserved.

But that could never replace

The life I had

Before you ruined me.