I would be more than happy to be able to re-enforce one of the old cliches: life taught me there is so much beauty in the world, that you can never give up, that friends are the most important thing, that the darkest hour of the night is right before dawn and so on..

          But if I am to be true, the biggest lesson I ever learned is that we are all alone. No matter how close you think you get to someone, no matter how much you think other people understand you, no matter how safe you feel around a special person or a group of people,you are still alone.

          Now, considering the fact that I spent the best years of my life and a considerable amount of money talking to my therapist, being afraid of loneliness ,you would think that this realization brought me desperation and misery. Only it didn't. Actually, when I could really embrace this fact, I felt liberated, I felt powerful and for the first time, I felt in charge of my life. Happiness was no longer something that I had to search and find in others, but something I could build and enjoy for myself. I let go of all the relationships that I was keeping just to be less alone and held on to the ones that were bringing me closer to myself and allowed me to grow as a person. I no longer had to shape and mold myself to other peoples expectations and desires and instead I learned to lister to my own ambitions and aspirations. Trust me, after years of trying to fit in, at all costs, it's really hard to know what you really like and what you came to like to please others. I had to redefine who I was, I had to decompose myself and build myself anew. 

         But in the aftermath, I found my essence, I found peace and finally, happiness.