happy birthday

I'm sorry that I have nothing to give you other than another unwanted, long-winded message. I realize I am not at all the voice you want to hear today but I want to write this message because there is an infinitesimally small chance that this could make things at least a little bit better. And if my words can still somehow make you feel better then maybe I will feel a little bit less guilt. If not, things can only get so much worse. I digress.

All I have to say is that I hope you are good. I can only hope that this message doesn't ruin that. I hope you're where you want to be, doing what you want to do, surrounded by people you want to be with. I still want that for you. After over a year of knowing you, my feelings haven’t changed. I don’t know if they ever will. I guess anything I have to say doesn’t really matter much now, but I want you to know that you’ll always have people who care about you and think about you. Maybe you already know that or are tired of hearing it but it is true. And because of that I’m certain you’ll have a good day today. I hope you’ll remember good days like this when you’re feeling down. Hopefully those days are now few and far between.