I’m going to shape up and fight back.

I'm kind of a sad person.

Everything I say sounds demeaning and negative.

I hate it.

I don't know why?

Maybe it's from years of feeling like I've been left out in the cold,

Ignored by my peers.

I felt, and still feel, like most of them don't care about me.

But now I have friends-

Great friends-

Who do care.

But I haven't told them that sometimes when I get down,

I get down on myself.

And I don't want to be alive anymore.

Just because of the people who once left me out.

I think that's not a good reason for me to feel so horrible.

And now I've made it a goal

That I will not let those people make me think of myself that way.