Fully.

I see you in full colors now, your beauty is breathtaking

    With these scratched up glasses it’s hard to make out shapes

I feel your hand reach for mine, its warm tones expanding

    With these unfeeling fingertips, I only touch a brick wall

I hear your voice call out for me, louder than the rain surrounding me

    The silence is overpowering. It’s as if I’m deaf; I’ve lost all recollection of sound.

I smell your fear, and I want to reach out and help you.

    My heart beats painstakingly inside my chest, the colors expand and contract

You’re farther away now, is it something I said? Dear angel, please return.

    And now I’m running towards the light, towards the promise we made

I wonder if I can still reach you, still hold you in my arms, one last time

    The darkness inside me is evaporating, I am feeling all there is to feel in this moment

You’re unreachable. Everything seems pointless, with you gone.

    Something is exploding outwardly, I am becoming another being

I still see you sometimes in my dreams, the kind you can control

    I still remember the cold softness of my mattress. The woven threads encompass me.

I still hear you sometimes in my head, your voice like that of a dove

    I’m lifted up off the ground, catapulted into the great expanse above me.

I still smell your perfume, I still love you, I still feel as if you’re here. Please don’t leave.

    As I rise I see someone standing below me, but the colors fade before I can call out.