your last present still lays on my neck

You were my brother but you were looking for a lover. I found that out by the unsolicited kiss I received from your hungry lips. The tequila and the marijuana kept me from pushing you off my neck fast enough. You tried to grasp my heart but you knew it wasn't there because someone else was holding it. All I asked for was your friendship but you took it and threw it away. What hurts the most is I know I can't stop you from loving me. I can't just expect you to hang out with me and not look at me like that. To wish I would just leave him for you. I don't want to wave myself in front of you like a cruel person waving meat in front of a hungry dog. I hate that I will always be someone you can't have because it means you will suffer. I don't wish I could be your lover. I just wish you could see me as a friend. But now I sit here, wanting to talk to you while knowing I can't. I rub at the mark and can't help but cry.