Empty

I'm feeling a loss of hope that true friends actually exist. I am being completely ignored by someone that was my best friend for almost six years now. I don't want to keep getting tossed around like a rag doll when I've treated him like my master when I'm a dog. I just want to talk to him and tell him that I don't want to keep getting hurt and I don't want to be friends with him, but he acts like I don't exist. I know I shouldn't be wasting my time but the thing is that he is still keeping me awake at night until 5am when my sleep medicine actually kicks in. Remembering all the memories and the fun we had together is wasted and gone. I thought things would change but in reality people stay who they are, and he happens to be the one who knows how to hurt more than help.