Can’t Control

Who's in control of my life's?

I couldn't tell you if I tried

I've been pulled everywhere

Left

              And

                            Right

I try to say a word

But shut down in a heartbeat

Tried to do a few things by myself

And I've only done one

One really 

                   simple

                                  thing

Join this site of course

Best choice of my life

But I don't control me

Not really, I'm influenced

In school

                 And

                          Out

Media and fads

Models and trends

I'm influenced

So so much

I

   Wish

            I wasn't 

That I could ignore all of that

And be myself

Nope, not me

I'm sucked into trends

Always wanting

                         Something

                                           New

Barely ever get it though

So I'm stuck wishing I was like the other girls

Wishing I had abs

Wishing I had less fat

I just

         Wanted 

                      To be liked

And right now, I don't think I am

Not in reality at least

So to sum it up, I'm not in control

Not of my own life

Controlled

                 By

                      Trends

And that's how it will probably be

Till I'm out of high school