Monster

Let me know how you feel. When the words "I don't care" ripple through your mind, chasing your pretty thoughts of happiness and laughter away and setting in thoughts of monsters that can change people within minutes of being with them. This can completely change a person within seconds. That's what it did to me. 

I never thought I would be able to see the light again. I thought this world would be all kinds of darkness and silence for a long time. There would be no happiness, or laughter in my life anymore. Only the pain beyond all that. I was questioning my every move. Was I doing the right thing? I had no clue. All I knew was that I was doing something wrong, and I didn't know what. 

It drove me to insanity. It sucked out all the excitement I had and replaced it with pure horror for the future. My life was in complete ruins. Even with everything going on, this world was a complete mess. I didn't want to get out of bed. I didn't want to talk to people. I didn't know what to do. 

I still don't know what to do. I wish I did because then I could get up and move around and be the person I want to be. Who I really am. But still, this darkness drags me down and creates someone I'm not supposed to be. Someone I'm not.

Help.