Fuck you, fat girls

I'm a judgmental fat girl. I look at those of you that are soft and sweet and i judge you for not being tougher, harder, more likely to take what you're given and throw it back or atleast have the skin to not let it in.

I judge you for your soft skirts, flowery dresses, and cute heels. I judge you for soft makeup and not having an acid tongue. I'm less than understanding when your feelings are hurt, when you cry because someone called you fat.

I judge the way some of you body positive it the fuck to death. Real women have curves, real women do this. You have to sing my praises and find me beautiful fat girls, demanding what isn't theirs, taking what they shouldn't, fat forcing themselves where they are better off not.

I see your forced positivity and i fucking hate it. I hate the way you judge back and I fully know i'm a cunt for doing it when i did it for so long. Pulling down shirts to feel better, i still do. Hiding from pictures. Knowing some will always think you're stupid because ass big, tummy chubby, thighs thunder.

I judge you for not being smarter, for playing dumb and weak, let that stereotype fucking die already. Yeah we all have issues but this, all of this, myself included, makes my soft next to unreachable. Not because i hate myself, not because i love myself, but because i hate what we do to ourselves.