Too many thoughts.
When I close my eyes I can picture it.
The blue sky, how warm the day is, how it feels to breathe and take in the beauty of life.
I can be anything, do anything, see anything, as long as it's in my own head.
My hands touch the keys and with the usual click-clack I type away a world which I have imagined. To others writing may not seem important. Maybe it's just something to pass the time. That's fine. If you enjoy it, then keep doing it. To the shy girl who has always kept her thoughts to herself. And who still second guesses whether or not to post anything it take courage to write.
It takes courage to give a voice to herself when she's always been the one in the back never speaking always daydreaming. It takes time for someone like this to take a risk that to other might seem easy. Giving people a look inside your head, inside your thoughts; that's what I think about when I write. Not as any character that I've created but as myself.
I've learned to grow, and to mature as I write. I can look back at things I wrote at the age of eleven when I had not found my voice and I can laugh in embarrassment at it and smile brightly because I have grown. While my characters remain frozen in time forever each and every single one of them reminds me of phases in my life. Good, Bad, Ugly, the really ugly and moments of peace which linger as memories that make me smile.
The scars I bare on the inside I pour on to pages that I can later go back and cry about and then forget. The happy moments the good memories of being with family, laughing with friends, loving someone. These are moment I capture in books as well; reading them over and over again until my face hurts from smiling. When I'm done I feel a sense of peace and I know it will not only be in my memory until the day I die but it will be part of something bigger now that I have shared this hidden part of me with the world.
It seems silly to some to smile and to find happiness in a world of books but bringing life experience to what you write is what makes things better. It is what makes people want to read what you have and it is what makes some want to do it too. And as I pour these thoughts to no one and everyone I feel happy. This is why I write not for anyone just for me.