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To go a year without breathing

Until it seemed there was nothing good

I couldn’t have told you why

I wouldn’t have stopped you if I could

And your candles fell to shadow

An umbrage that forgot about your light

I didn’t tell you in time

I’m sorry it seems I never really tried

You said I seemed endless,

But I don’t think you saw clearly

Whatever we were meant to teach each other.

Even a happy thought would escape

If you pressed its neck and spoke to it crudely.

That seemed sometimes like what you did to me,

You did me in but I still felt,

I still wanted to see you once in a while,

To get high in your living room

And watch you roll a flawless spliff.