It Get’s Better
All I could see around me was trees. Dead trees with low hanging branches, like they were reaching for me. In my eyes I saw the surrounding trees trapping me inside, almost as if I was inside of a cage. I don't know how I got here, I woke up on the cold forest floor, not knowing where I am or what happened before this. I decided I had nothing to lose and so I started walking in a random direction. I just wanted to get out of this cold and dark place. I don't like the dark. Not even the stars were out to guide me or give me any light. I was scared out of my mind but I just kept walking.
After an hour of walking I came across a beautiful clearing. I could see a flowing river, and waterfall, flat rocks to lay on in the moonlight. As I look around at this beautiful scene I could see a cave behind the waterfall. I was curious as to what was in it so I walked over. Once I was behind the waterfall I walked deeper into the cave. I started to see torches alongside the cave walls so I followed the lit trail. It led me to an open area and it looked almost as if someone lived here, but then I heard more rushing water and I pushed past the rooms and came out to a hidden clearing. This one was even more beautiful than the first.
In the clearing I was greeted by the smell of roses, rushing water, and the sight of a large mansion like house, large flat rocks like before, and green trees that didn't make me feel as if I was trapped inside a cage.
I walked over and sat on one of the flat rocks close to the water and ran my hands through the cool flowing water, it was just the right temperature. Out of the corner of my eye I saw something coming out of the tree line. What I saw shocked me. It was a large grey and silver wolf. I knew I should have been scared, should have felt fear of being hurt run through me. But all I felt was a safe feeling come over me. Somehow I knew that this wolf wouldn't hurt me.
It started to walk towards me. When it got close enough I held my hand out, wanting to feel its fur against my skin, look into its beautiful silver eyes with gold flecks. As it came closer and my hand made contact it was like I could feel a connection with this amazing creature. It nuzzled its snout against my hand, and after running my fingers through its soft and silky fur for a few minutes it walked even closer. So close it rested its head in the corner of my neck and brought me closer to him. To me it seemed as if it could understand that I was scared about not knowing where I am or what to do.
After minutes going by the wolf backed out of my arms and retreated back into the tree line. I was sad to see it go, it felt almost as if a part of me went with the wolf. As I was thinking about this feeling of emptiness I then saw a boy around my age step out of the tree line exactly where the wolf once came out and then re-entered.
He called out my name, “Scarlett!” He then ran up to me, picked me up and held me in his arms. I wasn't scared or freaked that I now had someone who I didn't know hugging me, calling my name, someone who seems to know me but I don't know them. I felt whole again, calm, happy. Just like how I felt around the wolf.
“W-who are you?” I asked once I was able to get some space. As I looked into his eyes I saw the same mesmerizing silver and gold eyes as I saw that the wolf had. I didn't need him to tell me, I didn't need to ask. I knew as soon as I looked in his eyes that he is the wolf I had seen not even five minutes ago. “You're the wolf I was just with...aren't you?”
He looked at me in shock, “How do you know that?”
“Your eyes. Their the same, I feel safe with you somehow, just like I felt when I was with the wolf. How can that be? I don't understand.”
“You feel the connection because I'm a wolf and we have soulmates, you Scarlett are my soulmate and I know you can't remember anything but I'm Phoenix your mate. I know you because we live here, in this house together, but someone took you and for years I couldn't find you. I knew that if you ever came back you wouldn't remember anything,” when Phoenix was saying this he sounded so broken, it hurt me to even listen to how broken his voice sounded, to see the heartbroken look in his eyes, it hurt so bad. “One morning I just woke up and you were gone, I saw blood by the window, on the walls, claw marks even. I was so scared that I might never see you again, that I might never get to hold you again, or see you walk down the aisle on our wedding day that we were planning. I saw a note that was left and that said I wouldn't find you. I broke down Scarlett, I really did.” By now Phoenix was crying as he told me about when I was taken. “I was so hurt. I couldn't understand why someone would take you from me, who would want to take you from me. We've never disturbed anyone, never made anyone angry or upset. I just can't understand why someone wanted to take you away from me. I was angry that someone had taken you, it only made m search for you harder. I never gave up looking for you, never. I wouldn't be able to live with myself if I had.”
I put my arms around him, crying too. After hearing him talk about what happened, after seeing our home again, I remember everything.
I remember the day we met and how nervous he got around me when he tried to come over and talk to me. I remember how even though I was nothing more than a big bookworm who spent all her time at the library or in a bookstore, he still loved me and had it in himself to not walk away from me. It didn't matter to him if I was a bit of an introvert, if I didn't really talk to other people that i didn't know, like his friends when he introduced me. He loved me from the minute he saw me and i could see how he was telling me the truth when he told me, i could see the love in his eyes.
I remember that one night he had everyone leave the house and after he made the both of us dinner he took me outside to the river. It was right where we were standing right now, and had blankets all over the rocks. He put up a white sheet in front of the trees and had a projector. All night he put on my favorite movies for me and we just laid there under the stars all night. When we were watching Beauty and the Beast, towards the end he asked me what I thought about spending the rest of our lives together. I looked at him and I didn't even give a verbal answer, all I did was lean over and kiss him gently, telling him that I thought it would be the best thing in the world, that it would make me the happiest girl in the world. He pulled out what looked like a custom made ring and asked me, if the love of his life would be so kind as to say yes to marrying him, I didn't have to think for one minute how I would answer him, of course I said yes. The rest of the night consisted of more movies, cuddles, kisses, and unremovable smiles plastered on our faces.
I remember our first disagreement during the wedding planning. Remember how we resolved the problem of what flowers we would have, what kind of food we would have. I especially remember the intense and happy feeling that ran through me every time I would look at the ring on my finger or every time I even thought of his name. From the night he put that ring on my finger we became even more inseparable than we already were.
I remember how happy the whole pack was about the engagement and how they congratulated us. They threw us a big surprise engagement party one day when we got home from having a lunch date. It was an amazing night full of congratulatory speeches and congratulations, laughing and joking, and just a lot of fun.
I remember it all, from the day we met to this moment right now. I felt so happy and safe now that I was back in my loving mates arms. It's the best feeling in the world to be back where I belong.
“Where is everybody?” I ask once I calm myself down, wanting to see the rest of the pack again after being gone for so long.
Phoenix looked down at me and gave me small smile, “everyone is inside. They missed you so much Scarlett, everybody has been lost without you.”
I silently take his hand and go towards the side of the house that was for all of the pack. Once I reach the door I turn the handle and open the door silently walking into the living room. I saw all the guys were inside of the huge living room, silently watching a movie. Everyone's back was facing me. I saw my best friend Alex and I ran over giving him a hug from behind.
Once I did that he turned around and cried. He wrapped his arms around me and didn't let go until Jace pulled him away to give me hug himself. He picked me up and spun me around, happy I was finally back.
Once Jace put me down he kissed my forehead and as I looked up everyone was staring at me, shocked that I was really here.
Andy was the first to break the silence, “Scarlett? Is that you?” In response I just nodded my head, smiling. He got up out of his seat and ran over to me using his enhanced speed, he moved so fast I could barely see him move. Next thing I know I'm enveloped into another hug, after a few moments I feel everyone else join in, a big hug with me in the middle of ten werewolves. I wasn't complaining though, these guys are my family and I love them all, it was also like being wrapped in a blanket burrito and cuddling with Phoenix, just not quite as good. Everybody was happy to see me and I was happy to see them. I was happy that I could remember them now.
After everyone let me go of the tight and warm hug I, after a few moments, heard the soft scratch of nails on the glossy and cool marble floor. I look to the direction of the noise and see the familiar sight of one of the little orphan wolf pups running up to me. “Tyler! Oh my little pup, I missed you so much.” I get down on my knees and open my arms wide for my little pup to jump into. I am then laying on the cold marble floor with Tyler on top of me licking my face all over. I laugh and smile widely as I hug him.
I hold him as I sit up and then put him in my lap and run my fingers through his fur. He wags his tail as I pet him and I smile. Andy breaks the silence “you know he's really missed you. He was the most devastated person here in the house next to Phoenix. They were the worst out of all of us when you were taken.”
I smile sadly but continue to run my fingers through his fur as he lays his head in my lap. I missed everyone terribly Phoenix, Tyler, Andy, Jace, Alex, Matt, Jackson, Noah, Cole, and Charlie. All ten of my lovable werewolves, I don't know how I could ever live without them and I don't wanna find out what it's like either.
After a few minutes I pick Tyler up and go sit at my spot on the couch and watch tv with my boys, Phoenix comes and sits next to me and I put my head on his shoulder. We all watch movies until it's time to eat dinner and Alex suggests we just order some pizza and we all agree. Charlie goes to the other room to order all the pizzas. About an hour later we hear a knock on the door and Andy goes to get the pizza, after he comes back with all the pizza he sits it down on the table and then we all dig in.
We all had a good time and for the rest of the night we stayed in the living room and watched movies. We all ended up grabbing blankets and pillows and all sleeping in the living room. I woke up from a nightmare and it started to thunderstorm and it was pouring rain outside. I do love this kind of weather but I also don’t like the dark, it’s one of the reasons that I like to sleep with christmas lights hanging in me and Phoenix's room.
I saw that there was still some of the hall lights on for anyone who needs it. I then decided to get up and walk to the kitchen to get something to drink and a midnight snack. I slowly and quietly got up after detaching myself from phoenix and then started walking to the kitchen. Once I was there I turned on the dim light so I could see better. I made my way to the cabinet where all the cups were kept and grabbed myself a glass then poured myself some water.
I thought I was alone in the kitchen, all the boys were asleep in the livingroom and it was only us in the house. I felt the presence of someone behind me and I was scared to turn around so I didn't.
This was the voice of the man who tortured me for months. The man who took me away from my family and made me forget them. The man who took me away from my love, my mate. The same man who I thought would always be there for me and who I grew up with. The same man who has convinced himself that he loved me and that phoenix was the person who has taken me away from him.
When I heard his voice whisper in my ear I sucked in a breath out of shock and dropped the glass I was holding in my hand onto the cold marble floors. I was in too much shock and felt too much fear to move or scream and cry for help. The glass crashed to the floor with water spilling everywhere and Alec covered my mouth so I couldn’t cry for help. If he decided to take me again I wouldn’t have any of the boys to try and help me get away, I would just be gone. The boys would wake up, I would be gone and all that would be left would be the broken glass and spilled water on the floor.